Something From Nothing

crossing over

2006-08-23T09:30:00.000+08:00

ok people. with effect from 23/8/2006, i will be switching over from blogger to wordpress.
basically, i find word press functionality, organization and simplicity is what i look for as a blogger.

please do ask me for the new blog link on msn or personally. thanks.

opportunities

2006-08-14T23:30:00.000+08:00

when an opportunity is presented, the first humanly possible reaction is to grap it or like singaporeans are reknown for being "kiasu" and snatching it.

come to think of in life, there are opporunities are always there and every where. whether big or small. well, i thank god has been rather nice to me seeing my life and giving me opportunities that help me in this personal relationship with him.

for me, it happens in my guitars. you see i was like a late gamer, i only had that passion and desire to learn about guitars. however when i apporach people, they did not have time or were too busy though they had that heart in them to teach me. GOD was still nice to me even so. he did something i least expect.

after that he sent various mentors to aid me and jem came one day to challenge me to take up bass. i did and i can tell i will never look back to that decision. but i still knew i needed something to compliment what im learning. i prayed for it. i approach charles to teach me but given his busy schdule i expected he couldnt. almost gave in to giving in.

point is this. with prayer and petition, plus waiting patiently for an answer, GOD will give you the opportunity and it always seem to happen when you least expect it. =D

fireworks fellowship. =D

2006-08-13T00:35:00.000+08:00

ive just returned from fireworks fellowhip. it was great and all. i enjoy this kinda times. just me and church mates talking, enjoying and sharing with each other. heck, i wish it never ended. similarly with other friends. ;)

here are some photos of fireworks and the kungfu gang. it was courtesy of jon wongs camera and joel's skillful photo taking mastery. =D

who am i?

2006-08-12T23:15:00.000+08:00

"who am i" is and will always be something that is emminent within youth, young adults and even adults are facing today. even i was facing it. it took me quite a will to answer that honestly.

you know when i tried to find out "who am i" at one time, recollections of such definitions such as "being who you are, is who you are". i tried things like acting cool, scolding vulgarities to get me "click" and wearing certain clothes or apparals that were famour brands like the shoes "addidas superstar", and even doing my own style, defining my own trend. was that "who am i". NO it wasnt!

than what do i see as "who am i". who am i? i am a child of GOD. i live by my instruction manual know which is the only one true word, the bible. im carrying the cross for him and im proud of it. =D

below is a following abstract is taken from samatha's blog. i feel you should go read it as it is really applicable to our lives. i share same opinions as her and i find it interesting the way she professional manners it. i love reading her blog. useful, applicable.

"Today’s sermon really answered a question that I’ve been asking for some time, which is, “Why is identity crisis so prevalent in many young lives today?” and I quickly and eagerly learnt that the answer to that simply lies in the answer to the question “Who am I”. Many of the points in the following paragraphs are based on the points preached in today’s sermon. It thoroughly blessed me, and I hope it blesses you too.

Piercings, studs, shirts that print the Mcdonald’s trademark “M” for “Marijuana”. Hip-hop, skaters, punk rockers, emo-punks. K-pop, J-pop, Taiwanese fashion bubble skirts. These change as fast as you can say “trend”, and the young people of today are forced to keep up with “cool”, excruciatingly more so than their counterparts from earlier decades.
The reason why so many young people alter themselves to achieve an exterior that sits dandy with any popular sub-culture is because they allow someone else to tell them who they are; because they could not find the answer to the question “Who Am I?” by themselves.
A recent play I caught with Suhui questioned the concept of Identity. Can it be defined, created, found, secured? Can you be sure of this identity that you eventually “find”, will it remain unchanging, eternal, safe?Today’s sermon had me by the edge of my seat as I listened and discovered the root of every teenager’s (and possibly, older) ailment: Identity Crisis. I learnt that it all lies in the question, “Who am I?” If you cannot answer this question for yourself, then surely others will start defining you on your behalf. Your parents tell you their career dreams for you; friends show you what it means to fit in (or not); MTV tells you to be a certain size or look a certain way; your teachers tell you that studies are the most important thing in life when - hey, no, isn’t living simply the most important thing? Teenagers’ blogs are full of phrases such as “sigh” and “I have no life” or “life sucks”. Whatever happened to the joys of youth?
The thing is, no one has the right to tell you who you are. Media moguls were very sharp on that, and cunningly turned that into a profiteering point. The docu-film Merchants of Cool, as I remember, had a line that went, “The new cool is now pseudo anti-cool”. “I am me. My life. My rules.” Nike says, “Just do it”, and Adidas tells us, “Impossible is nothing”. Teenagers are now being told that being cool was defining yourself in your own terms, and because impossible is nothing, anything is possible, so “just do it”. The result is a haphazard myriad of personas, uniqueness and full of independence, defiance and rebellion. Still, teenagers’ blogs are full of lamenting that nobody fully understands what goes on inside.

What now, if none can tell you who you are, and not even your own definition is to be trusted? Not to seem like I’m presenting a quick-fix one-size-fits-all answer here, but I’m saying it like it is nonetheless because it’s just so true: the answer is God. Of course! The one who created the universe and filled it with creatures and humans, the one who knew you before you were formed, who had an idea of who you were going to be is the only one qualified to say who you are. That tag on you came with an instruction manual, but like how we all are with instruction manuals, we ignore it. And end up missing out on so many more features we were wired with than we’d figured out ourselves. That means that Stacie Oricco and the dudes at Switchfoot were right: “There’s gotta be more to life”, and “We were meant to live for so much more”.
So now it becomes not simply an issue of who you are, but rather an issue of whose you are. Marked by the Maker’s fingerprints, you are able to overcome the physical things of this world. Not that you don’t face them, but you have the power to overcome them, because “you are not a human being having a temporary spiritual experience, but a spirit being having a temporary human experience”. Because you are your Maker’s; because the primary reality of this world is spiritual and not physical, you are locked safely to a spiritual security, so you can easily not sweat the small stuff. Sick? You can be healed. Hurting? You can be restored. Broken? In no time you’ll be made complete. You can now “do all things through Christ who strengthens you”, and where you are weak, “His grace is sufficient for you”.

Coming to Christ really isn’t just collecting your ticket to heaven. Who can make their passage to heaven, anyway? Now I may not exactly know what heaven nor hell is like, but I do know that it is hell enough to never be able to recognize my identity; to be on a constant search to please people to please me; to never ever measure up. But if I know whose I am, my identity is there. Tagged, marked, signed and sealed. And it will never change, because God is above the temporal, the mortal and the physical."

planetshakers: ultraviolet

2006-08-11T02:00:00.000+08:00

woohoo! i can tell you planetshakers concert titled ultraviolet rocked the house down. actually not the house, but the expo. it was really a good experience with GOD. seeing youths, young adults and adults across denominations all happily jumping around, praising and worshipping GOD was amazing!

we sang a lot of songs. new ones to old classics. new songs like pick it up, majesty, redeemer, arise and old classics like always and forever, jump around, big and evermore. i sang my heart out for GOD! to be honest, words cant describe how i feel. but i broke down. really, for the first time in my first concert i cried where my tear ducts couldnt stop overflowing. i felt the pain of every tear that flowed through my eyes. it was great. GOD prescence, the holy spirit broke me down. real bad! =D

but i liked the part where mike shared his testimony to the concert goers. it was good, interactive and funny. it kinda applied to my life. later when the show ended, all of us shouted "we want more!". but did we get it? NOPE! sobs. :'(

however, i felt the best thing was when the planetshakers team signed my CD and DVD that i purchase. i also got one for jasmine hoping that the gift would bless her in her life and help her in her walk. (enjoy it jas, wonder if you appreciate it tho. =X) sorry to my RP cell, my pocket didnt allow to get like 5CDs even. but i promise you the next time is happens, i will indeed. =D

hmmm, but something burdened my heart. really. never thought of it. i might want to go planetshakers church and study near that area. probably migrate and get married there? ;p
but ill miss Grace. o ya, below are some pics. taken off from my cam and borrowed from jas.

nightmares.

2006-08-07T23:05:00.000+08:00

many people wish that days would reset and they could start over again. apprantly, i dont want to for today. im kinda freaked by what happened this morning. it totally gave me a new perspective. and i can tell you this is the first of many to come. real bad and nasty ones that will eat into my personal life. what can be so terrifying?

NIGHTMARES!

i woke up several times this morning as i was spiritually attacked by the nightmares in what was suppose to be a good nights rest (when was the last time i used that term?). i saw visions, flashes, voices of various people and scenes. for discretion purposes, i shall leave those name out, tell me personally if you wish for me to share it with you.

all these flashes, voices of various people and scenes had attacked me for returning back to youth and YA. it had made me wonder. gave me new perspectives.

i wanna thank a few people for helping me during the initial period. people like darren, justin,
joel, and unexpectedly my godbrother Daniel Heng.

Heng has been a good brother, bringing in a form of comfort when im hurt at times, like a bigger brother attending to his injured younger brother. Thank you so much!

youth homecoming! =)

2006-08-06T22:15:00.000+08:00

well today was the first time i went back to youth service after a 2.5 years period. its been a long while since i ever took the first time through the level 3 hall. i thought i would never, i felt that i could no logner had the power to, but i actually did.

when attending youth service with justin and darren, they were models for a sermon related to tattoos. they had tattoos on various parts of their body. importance of such a thing was to drive through the thinking in our youth whether they should or should mark themselves with such things on the body. GOD looks at the inner person, not what is on the outside.

overall, i can say that youth is very different from what i had experienced a long time ago. i can sense and feel that the youth are heading towards the right direction, spiritual growing and you cant helped be blessed by them.

so to all the youths in R-AGE at there. jiayou! be youth for his glory!

YA homecoming

2006-08-05T12:55:00.000+08:00

well, yes today was finally the day. home coming is here! haha. today is the homecoming to YA at G2. after weathering storms for 4 months, im back! woohoo!

i cant feel any happy in anyways. really. the moment i stepped into YA service, i saw how much it had grown. how much the ministry had moved on to. and how i asked myself, "how could i not feel blessed and its time for me to catch up."

I decided it times i set some goals like Pastor kieran Vision 120 for the YA service. Vision120/07:bassistforGOD.bassistforthem!

bassistforGOD-iseemyybassnotasaninstrument.itsanistrumentforGOD.ivegottentoknowitsname&purpose!
bassistforthem-
allthoselostsoulsarewaitingthereinthebukitbatokarea.iwanttousemymusictobepartofthegodly
crewtoblessandreachout.

my first prayer and prayer night

2006-08-04T23:55:00.000+08:00

well, today i could tell you i never experienced GOD like before. it was really EXHILARATING! REFRESHING! ENPOWERING! words cannot simply describe how i feel.

i went to this first service telling GOD that i want to experience his perscence like a revived christian, a person who was refreshed by clear water with a humble heart. but i got MORE than i expected and more than i wanted, "more than i bargained for". i can tell you, GOD bought my experience with GOD to another level, another new terrain. AWESOME!

the church was united in its stance. all across the congregation from young to old, we all prayed like never before for the new church and the people around the bukit batok area. i never felt the holy spirit flow through the congregation. Pastor Peter Murray worship band was great also. they set the mood and they bought us to experience GOD through worship and praise.

in summary, it was worthwhile to go for P & P. i will definitely go for more and more of it. be it for R-AGE berry jam or the adult side P & P. either way its a blessing. i love it. thank you GOD and my fellow YAs, youths for getting me back in my homecoming phase!

ONE MORE DAY TO HOME COMING!

binary choices

2006-08-02T01:00:00.000+08:00

in our life we fast many binary choices. binary choices are a choice that are like a double edge sword, you have two sharp edges and you have to choose one.

i was thinking. i am trained in RP to think critically.

if i were given a choice between two persons. both who have their individual strength and weaknesses. people who im close to for like 5-6 years of my life by than and i had to choose one. who would i choose and what reason could i give for rejecting the other person?

knowing that i (jon liew) am that type who cannot do this sort of decisions at times and have to seek others advise to do so. knowing that at the end of the day, i might have to lose one friend and hurt that one similiarly.

i wonder what i would really do honestly. well hopefully, i dont have to face this similiar scenerio or else i probably be lost in a burren desert. lol.

module selection over.

2006-08-01T23:45:00.000+08:00

finally module selection is over for me. i decided to go with my parents decision and choose for modules. i was kinda lost over what to pick 4 or 5 modules.

i wanted 4 modules because i wanted to have a day off and concentrate on other things, but my parents felt that i could handle it. well its done i guess, its over le. i leave to the hands of the lord.

i leave you all an adaptation from the bible from Psalms.

The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
He leads me beside quiet waters,
He restores my soul.

He guides me in paths of righteousness for His Name's sake.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil, for You are with me;
Your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life,
And I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

home coming is near. cant feel any beta. =)

2006-07-31T00:15:00.000+08:00

well, i just returned from distributing flyers at the bukit batok area with the youth and YA gang. reuniting and minggling with the youth plus YAs made me feel more alive and happier than the last time. well, i cant feel any better before home coming.

but the distrubution of flyers came with experiences i so did not postulate. scary and good. serious.

ken, gao ming and me were at level 5 of block 341 when a freaky incident happened. we were looking at a unit at the rear end, and we saw the taoist tallisman on the door. so ken was asking what was the purpose to do such a thing. than when she queried whether is was to ward off ghost, we jumped when we heard a sound coming from behind. but we all realised it was the malay auntie that cleared her throat or coughed behind us. phew. scary ourselves. =X

the most encouraging thing came when we were at the 4th level. a christian day family came to our group and thank us for doing god's work. we discussed about the prospects and how G2 could be a blessing to neighbourhood. she even prayed for us in chinese. =D

pretty much sums up the day. other than certain rumors bout me and yb being together, etc. lol.

fate and destiny

2006-07-26T00:45:00.000+08:00

kevin yap gave us a very intersting RJ topic today. this one is non scientific. but it is a general topic. i think its good to have this kinda stuff. i like and appreciate it. i hope you all bloggers/taggers read it and share with me your opinions. appreciate it.

Read the following quote and explain how you think you can use its principle to deal with your life. "Destiny by: Anthony de Mello, SJ, One Minute Wisdom -- (To a woman who complained about her destiny the Master said, "It is you who make your destiny." "But surely I am not responsible for being born a woman?" "Being born a woman isn't destiny. That is fate. Destiny is how you accept your womanhood and what you make of it.")

my response:

Fate can mean that the force or principle believed to predetermine events, outcome or disastrous consequences. Where destiny can mean somebody's preordained future, the inner purpose of a life that can be discovered, found and something that predetermines events.

When reading this quote about fate and destiny, despite me being a neutral over this issue I would agree with what the master told the woman. In life, it was fate by God that I was born to be a guy serving him as a child of God in faith. This something I cannot change or cannot be reversed. I have to accept such a fate. However, when it comes to destiny, it is true that there is definitely something that we change and alter in various phases or transitional periods within this road we live in called life. For example, I could have controlled my destiny of what diploma course in the various polytechnics I wanted to choose given my O levels results. However, I choose to go to Republic Polytechnic for its IPBMS program or diploma and this where I bought my destiny to.

Similarly, destiny applies to studies. I guarantee you as a facilitator already felt such a thing from your nick that “is it better to slack and they don’t learn anything or work your butt of yet be unappreciated”. My response to this applying to fate and destiny is that they can choose how much they wish to learn from the lesson and gain their knowledge that would give them a destiny having interment knowledge and advancing further with competence or they could totally ignore it and slack and end their destiny in a way similar to the woman who serves the master complaining. The choice of destiny is on them. I choose the destiny which would give me having interment knowledge and advancing further with competence unlike last time where I rather slack and not learn anything from the lesson. Trust me, people will appreciate it one day, fate will bring them to you to tell you that. I for one admit that I have.

However I can understand why the lady went to say that it was her destiny that she became a woman. I feel that in the first place fate and destiny is subjective to different people. Different people can have different views of such things as there is no clearly defined definition to show the difference between both. At first, I viewed it as fate from GOD that I got bought to RP due to complications that happen within my body. Even so, I realised overtime that I can change fate or fate can be altered by changes in destiny if I excel well here and pursue my dreams and ambitions.

once again.

2006-07-25T12:55:00.000+08:00

yes. once again. im back to the same problem again. we had a similar argument over trust issues again. this friendship has been strained always by trust issues. this is not the first, i aint proud of it. really i aint.

there was something that happened within genetics class.i had pulgarised the slides from another classes one without understanding as the lesson was vague. real vague. and i dont feel any good about it either. the facilitator had noticed it and she was dissapointed and got pissed or slightly upset with my group and another that had the similiar one. than today trust issues came in from that starting from misunderstanding.

one small matter almost blew up to a big one.

great. great.great.great.great

to be honest it is easier for me to end the friendship than want to continue. but i cant. really i cannot. there goes it. i lost the status again. i can no longer be trusted by her. there goes all my plans.

to annoymous: we're back to that place once again. once again i look upon this friendship wondering and thinking. people have told me that you trust me. i know you do. but i never inteneded to present things in such a way. i admit what i presented was one sided to others that would have caused the misunderstanding. point is i never blamed you. i guess now is a really touchy period. i dunno what i should do. my cry has always been the same. its not cause i want to be that "knight in shining armour or special one in your life." so i get close. but ive been hoping, struggling and fighting to win back your trust or work from the gwround i have left. this is because spiritually i wish for you to open up and share your burden and load together by winning your trust such that i carry it and run this race called life together. now you know. am i an idiot to go on knowing that constantly i likely be hurting you and making your life more fragile, not helping you the way i want to for now? should i just get out of your life as i believe there are many brothers and sisters that would help you more than me now? i guess you have people that you trust more, click with more and love more. i wish knew how this friendship will turn out.

to god: i really wish to know how this is going to end out. at the end, will i be that friend that can help her or destroys her more? i wish i could be one that helps. sometimes i wonder why you do this kinda things in my life, what is the learning issue that you want to bring up. however, i cant seem to postulate, neither vision or see what is it or what will happen. but i know anything and everything that happens between us and in life, i submit it to you in prayer. to my all knowing father in heaven above.

verses to share (credit to Yap K.L):

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him & he will make ur paths straight
Do not conform to the ways of the world, but be transformed in the ways of the lord

im glad its over.

2006-07-22T03:05:00.000+08:00

well, finally

.itsover
.itsallover
.icanfinallyR.I.P

we argued, a cross fire of words and getting people involved in the battle line that we caught in between. im glad we sorted differences and managed to adressed the issues i wanted to.

i guess in my heart i dont feel as much as there is compared to last time. god has healed it well, sealed up that hole. but i know this. there are limitations.

the OUTCOME? i leave you all to guess it out. really.

love and relationships and ultimately friendships.

2006-07-21T22:10:00.000+08:00

i was insipred to blog something about this today after reading what other bloggers had said about these three issues that i found rather true and meaningful. kay, lets start. =)

.love
below is an portion of scripture taken from the bible. but christian or non christian people, its meaning is rather true.

"love is patient, love is kind. it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. it is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. it always protects, always trust, always hopes, always perseveres. love never fails. (1 Corinthians 13: 4-8a)"
-credits to amanda. this one was taken off her first paragraph. though she doesnt know i still read her blog. =D

love is defined as feeling tender affection for somebody, feeling desire for somebody, like something very much and showing kindness to somebody. come to thing of it, we all need love. who doesnt? however, love should be looked from a different perspective. what i mean is that love should be seen as doing an act of service without expecting any return. this is love but it does not mean im a charity organisation to abuse love. =D

.relationships

this is an abstract i pretty much agree with on relationships.

"Just yesterday, I was thinking to myself that if I were to be attached now or anytime soon, I would really feel weird. I mean I have been single all my life excluding those non-official with no status kind of "relationship(s)" that I had. I think I would feel as if I am robbed of my own space and time. Perhaps that is why I think relationships are scary despite knowing that I would definitely love to spend my time doing stuff with the person I love."
-credits to vannessa soh, though she doesnt know i secretly read the blog. im so dead. =X

to have a relationship definitely means that there is that special connection between you and someone, be it family, friends and in this case lovers. i think its really true that you will have to commit a lot of things, sacrifice your personal spaces just to have a real relationship. and the risk is that you get to overattached and once anything happens, you shatter like a thousands pieces of a broken mirror.

.ultimatelyfriendships

ultimately the two above can be linked down to one common thing. friendships. this blog has the title of never take friendship personal and its themed base on anberlin's album. there is a reason why.ive been into many friendships that have hurt me and tested me to the edge. but the more recent really hurt the most.

im not trying to tell you my emotionally grievences or anything. but point is that please be wary of the friendships you carry or have. cause at the end of the tunnel, it might not turn out to be light but darkness instead. however saying that, its definitely good to keep a company of brothers, sisters that are true to you and will follow you to dying moments, just as you would to them. agree people? xD

now i know.

2006-07-20T03:15:00.000+08:00

i guess now i know how this whole friendship is viewed as, that was what i was looking for, accountablility. makes me wonder and really think. to that person: in my mind im thinking. thank you. its a lost for me but i gain in experience from my relationship to GOD. now i just hope sincerely you get things right with your relationship with GOD. the bubble will bust eventually due to your burdens. chrisitans are suppose to share the burden with their fellow brother and sister, but i hope your friend will help you carry that burden spiritually and physically. there are many chairities out there who would be more willing.

i know what my priorites are now. the time has come. to stand for what i believe in or what all christians should. home coming is near, and i know history making is to come. time to be a bassist for GOD, for them. seeing revival, i will defy what holds me back from GOD's plan.

"notallchristianswillturnouttobeatruefriend.sadyettruereality."
"christiansonlycareaboutpeoplewhenneeded"

how true this is? i personally have my opinion but ill open this topic to all, christian and non christian. make some noise and get your brain juices working about this people. thank you. xD

ooo. one last thing i forgot. children church is doing a DVD with all the praise and worship actions songs inside. haha. im gonna be dancing, working my butt out for that. =D

the letter (revised 4th edition)

2006-07-19T02:55:00.000+08:00

well this is the letter. its longer than most of my RJ's now and it really expresses how i feel over her, over that time period. i am just praying hard that she will be recepetive.

I had the privilege of thinking about this early today this morning, and the spirit burdened me to pen down exactly how I felt about all that has happened between us from my perspective. Not doing this would mean that I have to face the consequences and living my life with regret. I hope after reading how I feel during a time when you are free that you will try to understand things have been going for me.

After that incident happened between us, I was thrown of course in life and emotionally shattered if you put it that way. Like I admitted, I was the jerk that hurt you in the first place. By ignoring the chance you have given me and throwing it aside. During that period, I did not go church during the weekends and took leave of children church to want to slowly reflect and take time off to think how to get through this. I went through a lot of emotions before I could actually properly think it through this morning when doing QT.

When you said I went to the extreme, there was a reason why I did so. I did it taking advice, out of concern knowing that both of us needed a cool down period and was hoping that it would be good for both of us. I tried hard not to initiate anything with you, such as to ensure that things would not get worst both ways.

During that time frame, I felt angered emotionally. Senseless and stupid thoughts that came to my head were thoughts of hate, jealousy, etc. I anathematized you secretly, despising everything about you. Jealousy made me think that why should I help you in certain things when you got other better guy friends to help you, people who actually “care more”. The worst thing was that I questioned the friendship. I wondered whether this friendship actually meant anything to you, when it meant so much for me. I was stupid or “sort” after I let my emotions take over me.

I guess what God wants me to do is that he wants to make this friendship better and much stronger in unity before. Well I believe there is a light at the end of the tunnel. We have been there, done that. This is the hardest trial I had ever faced over friendship, but I know this is going to be fruitful as God gives you things that you can handle.

I would continue praying that this friendship would slowly open up to sunrise and that it would blossom and stand stronger and firmer after a certain time period as I do always for you also. In addition, I am praying for healing to come, showers of blessings to upon both of us to take away all the lies, pain within us and bless us with new horizons.
To me, you actually mean a lot as you have been the one had given me the trust, support and encouragement. Unlike no other, that part of you is unique, a value or treasure that nothing can ever replace or take away just like the unconditional, unselfish love a father gave for us when he died on the cross. That’s how much it really means to me, I really do miss all the good times when we had fun and things, when there was no pain, no sadness and no sorrow to worry about like that of the holidays.

I hope that you will understand now how I really felt during now and that time frame. There is an abstract I like to share below for you to read. Hope it ministers to you in some ways.

Life teaches us
that although we try to change others,
realistically we can only attemptto change ourselves;
yet, so often reconciliation is viewedin terms of changing other people.

And so I say that for each of us,
reconciliation must take place
first in our own hearts
wherein each of us
confesses and acknowledges
that we have made our own contribution
to any disunity and separation
that to some degree exists among us.

It is my fervent hope and prayer
that we shall receive the gift of healing
and reconciliation and true unity
which is only the Lord’s to give,
and comes simply from our willingness
to open ourselves to receive it.

Take care, God bless!

the 5 am burden of a letter

2006-07-18T05:35:00.000+08:00

today is the earlist hour i ever blogged. i woke up at 5 am feeling burdened by the spirit.
over what? the thing that has made my heart cry out from the inside out. i was hugging my
bolster and pillow sobbing on it as i never felt something like that in a long while.

i knew i had to do something about. thus in mind, i was hinted to write down and pen down all my thoughts of how i felt. the hardest part would actually be telling that person on a letter in a manner that is true yet it doesnt sound to pushy or agressive. neutral is the word.

yawns...ok time for me go to sleep so that i have enough rest for school later..

we all wanna be loved.

2006-07-17T13:35:00.000+08:00

just had lunch with the madhouse of W36L and with special guest Su. whahaha. once in a whie good to have facilitator to eat with student. its fun and cool.

well, i was stef a.k.a furbie (my sister) nick name. it struck a chord in my heart. really it did. "i forgot to love jesus, did u? i think i did. big slap to my face." was what i wrote. well lets look at it from a normal perspective.

i asked myself "have i forgotten to love like the way you first me when i didnt even deserve to be loved. where is the love from me to you? all for love." so i wanna ask u all the same thing? have you actually taken advantage someone and not love them the way they did to you? have you loved someone the way some others love you?

we all wanna be loved. we all need to be loved. love is a fact/emotion we cannot avoid. go out there and tell someone you love them instead of them loving you. it goes two ways. not one. lets love each other today. =)

DC Talk- Wanna Be Loved

We all wanna be loved, yeah
We all want just a little respect
We all wanna be loved
Tell me whats wrong with that
Oh, somebody tell me

A rainy monday afternoon
Theres a funk over the city
Everybodys movin to a different tune
Some are weak and some are strong
And some are sittin pretty
And then theres others who are barely hanging on

Its no easy situation
People living in their separate worlds
But one thing we got in common is...

We all wanna be loved
We all want just a little respect
We all wanna be loved
Tell me whats wrong with that

Ive never heard a dying soul
Wish that he had taken
More time on his portfolio
I swear Ive never heard a mama say
Shouldve never had that baby
As a doctor holds her newborn on display
Its the heavenly prescription
A little bit will go a long, long way
Just put yourself in their position, dont...

We all wanna be loved
We all want just a little respect
We all wanna be loved
Tell me whats wrong with that

We all wanna be loved
We all want just a little respect
We all wanna be loved
Tell me whats wrong with that

blogging @ jasmine's place.

2006-07-16T23:35:00.000+08:00

today had the opportunity to go to jasmine place to do work. first time go there. it was a humble 3 level terrace house. bigger than mine but it was cosy tho. thx jas. =)

well, i was there earlier but i kinda felt like leaving cause the silence was killing me. seriously it was. real bad. all i heard was wind charms, construction site noises+ both jo's making one heck of a noise. =X. especially when your the only guy, so paiseh lo. who wouldnt.

lata, we went off to pick up xt. wida reached much later. ____ nvr came coz he had work. but nvm, we dun need him also. =X. we had fun together at her place. as usual the girls tok pictures. but i didn have any to take or have a fair share! sobs~ :'(. aint photogenic, doesnt matter. lol.

after we called it a day, i walked home slowly reflecting. reflecting with running. emotions came in. i was thinking did i initiate things too early? am i too suceptible of being taken advantage of? well, god i hope that isnt the case or else changes will have to come and go. yea.

today is another good night to cry out to my beloved friend and savrior. GOD.

DC Talk- Consume Me

Lovely traces
I can sense you in everything
The way that you move me
Takes me far away
I seek no escape
Im dreaming through your eyes
I am wandering through your mind
Im overtaken by the way that you deliver me
Im transcended
Theres no place Id rather be
Than here in heaven
Without you Im incomplete
Its hopeless

You consume me, you consume me
Like a burning flame running through my veins
You consume me moving through me
Anytime, anyplace you invade my space
You consume me, you consume me

Wholly devoted
I immerse myself in you
Baptize me in your love
Cause drowning in the thought of you
Floods my soul
Im taken by the things you do
God, you knowIt doesnt matter what I loseIm yours

You consume me, you consume me
Like a burning flame running through my veins
You consume me moving through me
Anytime, anyplace you invade my space
You consume me, you consume me

I am in your handsUnder your command
Like a puppet on a string[lord you know]
I am willing toPut my faith in you
So before the world I sing[consume me]

You consume me, you consume me
Burning flame, through my veins
You consume me moving through me
Anytime, anyplace you invade my space
You consume me [oh, you know that I surrender]

I am consumed, Im consumed with you
Theres no other way I can fly
Its you and i, you and i
Theres no other way I can fly
Its you and i, you and i

back just to say hi

2006-07-15T23:55:00.000+08:00

well sorry people i havent been blogging of late. its been a killer. i need time OFF! weekends are suppose to be my free time.

been burning my brain juice over finding resources over Pubmed and sciencedirect, etc just to answer kevin yap RJ question. for knowledge, i will persist creatively. well, i also have a lot of issues up my head. ranging from family, friends, spiritually also.

but i will weather this storm. i know i will. through christ in the vessel, we will smile at the storm. =D

Woohoo! My Heart is Alright.

2006-07-13T21:30:00.000+08:00

today had AP lesson man. the boring part was doing the ppt and the work stuff. but when it came to practical. ooo. it was so fun!

haha. today we had the pleasure of using the ECG machine and sphygmomanometer to test for blood pressure of someone. hehe. mine was normal! 112/72. still a normal human afterall. my ECG turned out ok also, but the weird part was that the reading overshoot the section that was suppose to be printed. wonder y?

and at night. dad told me that it was car selection time! woohoo! but the part that is going to take a long time is choosing the right car and justifying why. hehe. guess my heart was anticipating for that.

my heart is also feeling that "sometimes i want to let of go of u but yet i cant. the heart is there, the will isnt". need time. xD

revelations and more revalations

2006-07-11T23:55:00.000+08:00

o man today was kevin yap's lesson again. before we look into his RJ, revelations were already made. it came to me as a shock when i saw it!

Fact No. 1: He is ACSian, pure breed from ACPS>ACSS>ACJC
Fact No. 2: He is a christian! Somemore attending CHC! (this was more shocking)
Fact No. 3: He has a girlfriend who is the manager of a local pharmacuetical company...

Dont wish to continue on...

Argh! This is so not good! Now for his RJ question. R-AGErs, people who read my blog especially RP people. Be ready to be shocked. Here we go.

Reflection Journal
After knowing the most common, yet inevitable biochemical process happening in our bodies when we eat food, read the following article, and justify convincingly whether you would rather eat the advertised noodles in place of rice (or the main carbo food which you take) as your staple food. Do a literature review, and write a manuscript following the author's instructions of the journal "Analytical and Bioanalytical Chemistry". There should be no less than 10 references in your manuscript. Your grades today will be determined on how well you can convince me of your answer. July 5, 2006: Virtually free of carbohydrates, shirataki noodles can be cooked in different ways, says Sylvia Tan. I am a carbo freak: that is, I love rice, bread, noodles and even potatoes. Unfortunately, that is the diet of someone very active who works outdoors, cleans their own house rather than relies on help, walks rather than drives and carries their own shopping basket rather than in a supermarket trolley. So over the years, I have had to cut down the carbohydrate content in my diet. Still, it is a losing battle. I cannot resist a pinch of bread, a mouthful of rice or a slurp of noodles each time I sit down at the table. But I have just discovered shirataki noodles. These are yam paste noodles, made from the root of a plant, Amorphophallus Konjac, or elephant yam, though this is not related to the yam plant as we know it. But the exciting thing about these noodles is that they are practically carbo-free. Actually they are 96 per cent water and the rest, soluble fibre or glucomannan to be specific. So the West has been hailing them as the latest carbo-free pasta, serving them both hot and cold in recipes. Less well known is the fact that glucomannan can play a role in blood sugar control as well as help in cholesterol control and weight loss. It is also ideal if you cannot eat wheat. Actually, these noodles are not so new to us. We have eaten them mostly in sukiyaki where they are the noodles in the dish, and in oden where they are served in blocks. Known better to us as konnyaku, we also encounter the yam paste in sweet jellies where they come in many colours and flavours. Otherwise it has no taste of its own, assuming the taste of the sauce in which it has been bathed. From the above, you can conclude that glucomannan comes in powder, blocks and noodle form. They also come in grey and white, though I would recommend the white simply for aesthetic reasons. Similar in texture to tanghoon, bean thread or glass noodles, the trick is to cook them a little to soften them, although it is possible to eat them cold directly from the pack. While you could use the noodles in any number of cold noodle recipes - like the Thai tanghoon salad, you could also dress them in a Chinese flavoured dressing, toss them in a chilli-flavoured oil dressing as in ta mee or cook them like I did. Here I serve a Chinese meat sauce on top of the noodles, together with some shredded vegetables and, important, some vinegared leeks to spike the mouthful. The meat sauce is flavoured with tau cheo (preserved brown bean paste) and chilli and seasoned the time-honoured way with sesame, rice wine and soya sauce. While you may hail this food as an addition to the healthy table, do not go overboard and consume large quantities of it. Just as you would not consume large amounts of tanghoon, shirataki noodles do tend to swell in the stomach unless you consume lots of fluids with it, so do go slow at the beginning.

I am so dead! xD

back to school. monday blues

2006-07-10T22:15:00.000+08:00

well, back to the usual routine of school and all. haix. damn sianz today. guess its due to the monday blues. whahaha.

but genetics lesson was rather interesting today. though im not a believer or what so ever on those controversal topics like "big-bang theory, darwin's theory of evolution", i guess as a science student i have to increase my knowledge about with all these. we had to use some programe called DABME to find the relationship between the Homo sapiens, Gorilla gorilla, Pan troglodytes a.k.a human, gorilla and chimps. =D

well i thank god i have faciliatators like Su also. She's been helping me a whole lot with my spiritual side. giving me constant advice in class or outside of how i can improve myself. this is good. who says your facilitator cannot be your friend and advisor too? It works well both ways!

hmmm but one question remains in my heart. should i try someone as a close friend, friend, classmate or maple friend? i just dont wish to feel hurt due to being overattached. and i dont wish for a friend to go liddat. hmmm. how sia?

offday on sunday.

2006-07-09T23:55:00.000+08:00

well, today i took a day off from church and my usual sunday live because i wasnt feeling real well and i had overslept due to the late night i had from entertaining my guest and watching the world cup 3rd/4th placing between germany and portugal. Deutschland gewinnen!

i felt much better and more alive than regular days. i finally had time alone with myself in my house with stef asleep and parents + maid out for church. i had time to think and slowly sort my thoughts, reflecting at the pace i wanted. i realised i had to let go, sometimes crying/shouting out like a normal person or singings helps you relief your burdens. GOD also. =D

but i know there are somethings that have to be altered. i will have to slowly withdraw from certain things. step down from it. guess its pretty much cool down for now but i beta not attempt to intiate anything.

later parents came back announcing that they traded the Mercedes E class for a new BMW 523. i didnt really have any emotion to react. but i was a little dissapointed despite understand their perspective. stef shared the same views too. haix.

today went pretty well tho. mabbi i should have days alone at home by myself once in a while. it helps. =D

the best time of the week

2006-07-08T23:30:00.000+08:00

Today was one of the best days ever I could ever have in the weekend. There was a gathering that my parents organized with their old friends and church mates from CGM.

At the beginning, I was telling them that I didn’t really want to mix with their friend or be part of the gathering as I feel I wouldn’t click with them. I mean who wouldn’t feel weird to see adults that weren’t even in your live or that was in existence before you came to this world?

The first family that came was a reverent from Malaysia. Well, they seemed to be such a humble family and they had a modest daughter called Ai Ci. Well as usual, at first the AS side of me kicked in and I stayed in my room just happy mapling in the corner of my bed. I guess the AS side of me is starting to display because I want to be away or as withdraw from the world. My parents and friends who came in later were suaning me to go jio her. Tsk, irritating. =X

But when kids and youth start coming into the house, I couldn’t help to but play along with them. Stef + Ai Ci entertain the girls naturally. That was when I felt most at ease and didn’t need to do much entertain except with the kids. Hmmm, I notice that Ai Ci has a naturally gift of handling pre-toddlers, toddlers and kindergarteners. Sadly, I didn’t get the chance to communicate with her. =P

Overall it was a great day today. I finally had the much needed sleep for the week too.

accidents happen

2006-07-07T00:45:00.000+08:00

accidents happen in my life. ive been really emotionally unstable my pass few days. ive been having a real heartache over my friendships and my academics. nights and night ive been crying to GOD over my woes and to my other friends. mapling also helped a little.

but i know that any further news or incidents would drive me over the edge. really. than it came. when i called home, my maid told me mom got into an accident. a car accident. when i heard that, i was worried sick. i almost cried. i didnt even have appitette to eat lunch or dinner.
i blamed myself. if she didnt send me, this wouldnt have happened.

i rushed home waiting news. didnt send D off. news to see whether my mom was better. to find out the news i so eagerly wanted to hear. at the end when she came back i was relieved. she told me she had slight bruises and still having shock from what happen.

more sleepless nights.

communication brokedown

2006-07-06T02:15:00.000+08:00

i be telling a lie if i tell you that nothing much has happen to me, neither could i say im prefectly alright.

well, basically im at a lost. real lost. i scared and silenced due to the space that has been created after that incident, the direct slap to my face. the only reply i can give back is "orh ok, oh..." for now or maybe for quite a while.

i guess ive suffered so much emotionally that my heart has been feeling the pain so badly just trying or attempting to communicate or even open communication. i have resorted to pain killers to rid of it fast and quick. i had thoughts of quitting maple, changing transportation routes just to avoid it, to run away and i can simply put up another mask to hid the real face. stupid me, stupid jerk.

but is this the end, to our faithful friendship?

"now that we see communication broke down. what we believe, so here we say goodnight..."
Recluse- Communication Broke Down

who i am hates who i've been

2006-07-05T08:15:00.000+08:00

Relient K- Who I am Hates Who I've been

I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think Im losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics...
'Cause I dont want you to know where I am
'Cause then youll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.

Stop right there. Thats exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.

Im sorry for the person I became.
Im sorry that it took so long for me to change.
Im ready to try and never become that way again
'Cause who I am hates who Ive been.
Who I am hates who Ive been.

I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldnt keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.
I heard the reverberating footsteps
Sinking up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.
And I cant let that happen again
Cause then youll see my heart
In the saddest state its ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.

Stop right there. Thats exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. I never should have said
That it's the very moment thatI wish that I could take back.

Stop right there. Thats exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. I never should have said
That it's the very moment thatI wish that I could take back.

Who I am hates who I've been
And who I am wont take the second chance you gave me.
Who I am hates who Ive been
Cause who Ive been only ever made me...

So sorry for the person I became.
So sorry that it took so long for me to change.
Im ready to try and never become that way again
Cause who I am hates who Ive been.
Who I am hates who Ive been.

The last two stanza say what I feel. That's pretty much it.

chances

2006-07-04T22:05:00.000+08:00

i wanna quote what sam said coz i feel the same. "recently.. lotsa thoughts on my mind, been bothered about something i shouldnt be, and being hurt by many selfish, insensitive emotions. wish i could blog about it.. think its something too personal that i would even breakdown over."

when chances are given, we humans never tend to appreciate it or realise what is it for, the real meaning behind it or treasure it in our lives. i just hope after reading this, you like me learn it the easy way, not the hard and emotional way. i guess i took advantage of chances given. gave me one to prove her chance that i could have a change of heart and attitude to do well, excel better as a friend. but i failed. i fell and falled big time due to my jealousy and sterotypeness taking over.

receiving the slap on my face, i lost control. my mind went haywire, feeling super emotional. i went nuts, bonkers. after that it was a really terrible feeling, even though its not happening to me, the feeling of being backstabbed, betrayed and hurt by a close friend that you thought you could rely on, share and complain to. i was the jerk. aint proud of it

1: appreciate and treasure the chances given to you

i almost broke down to tears literally. i talked and shared with some and a few points were bought out over this. was chance defined wrongly? do we expect a lot and certain things from chances that are given? a binary choice is when you got two choices from one possible outcome. chance is binary. with chance is it worth it to find someone or a group of people and get overattached, and get hurt in the end?

2: define chance.

to end i agree with what sam said and i feel this too. "its not the first time ive been in this terrible spot. it probably wont be the last. i'll probably get over it, and learn. but in the first place, these are only caused by my own selfish opinions and emotions, and i cant blame anyone else for that either"

all i can do is pray and hope for the best.

Dear GOD,

please take this feelings for someone inside over mine. i was the jerk. thank you for putting me through your eyes, your perspective, it opened the eyes of heart. however, i have this question for you. what is your real will. let not mine but yours been done. i know it takes time and patience to hear a yes, no and wait from you, give me the strength to live on for your glory, being a man for GOD. i'm sorry my motive has been wrong. i love you.

Amen.

the time has come

2006-07-03T08:35:00.000+08:00

Well, indeed the time has come for me. Its time for me to set things I want in my life, where my priorities, ministries belong to, to stand for all I believe in.

First thing first, the things I want by Jonathan Liew. The things are want are basically a renewed, rejuvenated (note that Im not using the word regenerated coz I didn go retreat) relationship with my GOD, I want that special person in my life, I want to get my music right this time for GOD, Daniel Heng. I know I cant get this things I want immeadiately, its either a yes, no and wait answer but I'll be patient! =D

Next thing up my list is my priorites in life and ministry. My priorites will still always be my GOD, academics and friends. I guess studies my aim is just do well enough to ensure that I can take the electives fro next sem and to be able to get a degree overseas. Ministry wise, I know its time for me to return to youth soon but I will still faithfully serve at CC till the end of this year. xD

Hillsong United- The Time Has Come

Found love beyond all reason
You gave Your life Your all for me
And called me Yours forever
Caught in the mercy fallout
I found hope found life
Found all I need
You're all I need

The time has come
To stand for all we believe in
So I for one am gonna
Give my praise to You

Today today it's all or nothing
All they way
The praise goes out to You
Yeah all the praise goes out to You
Today today I live for one thing
To give You praise
In everything I do
Yeah all the praise goes out to You

Found love beyond all reason
You gave Your life Your all for me
And called me Yours forever
Caught in the mercy fallout
I found hope found life
Found all I need
You're all I need

The time has come
To stand for all we believe in
So I for one am gonna
Give my praise to You

Today today it's all or nothing
All they way
The praise goes out to You
Yeah all the praise goes out to You
Today today I live for one thing
To give You praise
In everything I do
Yeah all the praise goes out to You

All we are is Yours
And all we're living for
Is all You are
Is all that You are Lord

Today today it's all or nothing
All they way
The praise goes out to You
Yeah all the praise goes out to You
Today today I live for one thing
To give You praise
In everything I do
Yeah all the praise goes out to You

Congrats~!

2006-06-29T00:45:00.000+08:00

This post is dedicated to my applied chemistry facilitator, jasmine and mine, the besttest da jie anyone can have, Magdeleine!

Congrats da jie for clinching the Professional Engineers Board (PEB) gold medal which is awarded to the top MSc graduate! Me jealous lo. Well, it proves that nothing is too difficult for anyone to achieve as long as you persist like the way she did by managing to pursue a Masters of Science in Biomedical Engineering at NTU in 2004 while working full time and was conferred the MSc degree in 2006. Juggling work and studies was no easy feat ok!

Jie Jie i wanna be a late bloomer like you! I want to be as powerful as you also. =X. Teach me how to become like you, or share with me your secrets. =D

Well, Jie Jie, if you have problems or things you feel upset about, always remember there people like your PPG kakis, Jasmine and me to lend you a shoulder to cry on. Love ya lots~!

evermore.

2006-06-28T10:15:00.000+08:00

I just felt a strong burden in my heart this morning. I havent felt such a strong burden in my heart. I admit I was angered and moody after sensing this burden in my heart. I trying not to let my emotions get a hold of me as I'm afraid it might cant into my friendship with someone.

With this I start with a prayer.

Dear GOD, this is the first prayer I ever written in my blog. I dont understand why Im feeling such a strong burden. Im really lost for words, nothing to say or describe or express the way I feel deep down. I know what it is related to, but I know you understand my every single emotion. God, there have been many good things you have given me, even someone special and closest to me currently. But somtimes my emotions get in the way and I get jealous over it. Please create in me a clean heart and the ability to control my thoughts. If there is that someone in my life, let your will be done and give me the patience to wait and put to hold those emotions from affecting my friendships. I guess right now what I can do is be a man of GOD for you and make more close friends with the people around. I want the power to love for you in my life.

Amen.

With this I got a song to share with you people. Yong Bin sang this song during a skit in VBC and after listening to it, it had given me a peace I could never find in my heart. =D

Hillsong- Evermore
Lost for words with all to say
Lord you take my breath away
Still my soul, my soul cries out
For you are holy

And as I look upon your name
Circumstances fade away
Now your glory steals my heart
You are holy, You are holy Lord

Evermore my heart, my heart will say
Above all, I live for your glory
Even if my world falls I will say
Above all, I live for your glory

With all my heart I'll say
I'm living for your name
With all to give you praise
We're living for your glory Lord

T- Zero: Day 1 with Kevin Yap

2006-06-27T23:45:00.000+08:00

well today is the day. today is the first lesson with kevin yap. in the morning, jas was even considering whether to wake up and go to school. for me, i had no choice to go as i was there to learn but all the more i wanted to give kevin a chance. esther would have wanted me to think positively and give him a chance again.

when i first entered the lab, his face did not leave a good impression in the beginning. he had that look. that look of evil in his face. his grin didn even help either. it was like he was devil in disguise. i just wanted hell to end fast at that moment. but holding that first impression, i decided to think positively.

as usual, he gave his usual introduction of himself. than he shared with us his motive and the purpose of his lesson. what i felt was a good start was that he said he would try to accomadate us with his facilitation style. i guess there are areas we can compromise ba. than came the lab procedures. he was good in that way that he ask questions to make us think logically and to aid us. at the end, he made gave us a challenge to measure 27ml of RO water using a falcon tube with markings per 5ml and 10ml. quite fun. =D

however, the dreadful part about him is his long reflection journal questions. i decided i write a short and sweet 500-750 RJ to express a summary of everything i learnt. i just hope he would be more open and lenient on his grading. i just hope to see a B for a good start. so kevin, please prove me right that you are a nice person like what your colleagues say. t_T

start of school with mixed emotions

2006-06-26T20:30:00.000+08:00

school has started already for one week. it has been a week of mix emotions and mix reactions within me. but more of the bad than the good. two facilitators leaving us and grades not being at all excellent.

well to start of, one of the best biochemistry facilitator Esther had dropped us for another facilitator called Kevin Yap. Of all facilitators you leave us this mad physchotic, seemingly traumatized and sadist like facilitator. Having him for one lesson in Anatomy and Physiology is more than enough. All I learnt was how to do exercise or do 5BX only. Esther, what have we done to trepass against you and why have yor forsaken us? =X. Like Jasmine said, I really got to love my neighbour by tomorrow. Its not gonna to be all right I feel. GOD, please give me the patience to be recepetive towards him and accept his style of facilitation.

but there was good news still. despite granny shabana leaving us, she left us in good hands at least. during genetics today, we had a new facilitator called Su Tay. Teh Su Su. =P. She doesnt seem like the normal convential facilitator. and the best thing that she's a christian! Su Tay is a leader in YA for Revival Nation btw, so spiritually if i have any problems, at least i know who i can find now also. hehe. =D

well, i just hope all goes well during this last part of semester 1 of year 2. pray for me please.

VBC Camp 2006: To Serve With Love

2006-06-18T22:45:00.000+08:00

I just returned from the best children camp ever among most of them attended or have helped out in. This years theme was to serve with love and we had various things installed for the kids from powerful sermons to fun and exciting games.

The sermons were given and preached by Pastor Jadene. She has a amazing power and way of reaching out to the kids. She really manages to warm the heats of the kids such that they can come home after the come and really serve with love. I was really touched by the way the parents had given me feedback tha the camp had helped changed certain characterisctics in them. Thank GOD!

Well, what I liked most about the camp were the games. Brother Raymond, you did a good job! Thanks for giving me the experience of working alongside with you. The Servant King Unviersity was really a good way of making the children learn what it means to serve with love. On top of that what I liked was the game where the children had to find out who, what, where and why a person got murdered. Guess who it was? Sister Kimberly.

However, all things did really go in a good note. When Yongbin and me were assigned to steal cups from the children, we were the center of controversy. Seeing her cry due to the children's abuse of calling us "cup stealers" really made my heart melt and I wanted to share the pain and carry the burden with her. However, I guess our intentions were clear that we wanted the children to learn responsiblity in their posessions given by their master. Even as of 25th June, Im still called cupstealer. So yea, life still goes on. I guess another thing to be improved was the prayer tunnel.

But despite all the good or bad things that happen, I would like to thank everyone. From the committee, to the speakers, to the children who attend. But the people who will always be in my heart are these special group of youths who have made me regenrated. They are the nicknamed the VBC Regeneration Squad. =D

when reality sets in.

2006-06-03T23:45:00.000+08:00

after reading the post jasmine put in her blog today and her msn personal message which was "suffering is inevitable. it pains me deep inside to see it happen.", reality had set in. when reality sets in, denial seems so unreal and fake. it just put me in real deep thought.

when jasmine said that "the rest of the day was basically spent thinking about life and death.as i see people crying out in pain", i couldnt help it and remembered my flashbacks of me being in hospital over my near fatal condition and when my gramps had suffered severe dementia that once. a past that i had denied. in addition, the way i saw my close friend in bed, it really hurt me a lot. i felt them. it was real painful.

i guess i woke up and realised that we really have to appreciate the ones with have around us. starting from family to the close friends. could you imagine if you were the one warded at that bed, lonely with the fan your only friend at night? i for one am really thankful for the supportive family i have and good friends like jasmine. people i cant bear to lose honestly.

lesson for you people. please appreciate your love ones. =D

food glorious food!

2006-06-02T23:45:00.000+08:00

well, finally 7 weeks have passed and school has ended for a short two week break. relieved i m indeed. had a class outing today! woohoo, but its was kinda funnie coz 12 pple were suppose to go swensens, in the end left 6 faithful people. ai yer, swensens service was too slow to cater to our big group and on the other hand it some people couldnt afford Swensens and had to rush back. u6 really missed the fun!

i felt kinda weird, coz i didn noe whether the girls would mind if i went out with them. i was the only guy amoung the six of them. lucky me or misfortunated? =X. hope i wasnt disturbing the girls plans for a good night out. well i pretty much managed to blend in with all my jie-jie's there. i guess it sometimes good for guys like me to hang out with them to understand and see their perspective. girls are smart, beatiful creatures made from GOD above. guys time for us to admit it. =D

but i had a great night out with them, wish i could have more outings like this with them. its really good to have the companionship of such people. well below are some photos, please drool at the food if u have to and stare at girls if you want to. but dont ask me intro them to u. =P

makan makan:

kakis:

jasmine (photogenic person) and yours truly (i cant pose for nuts and am photo unfriendly!)

zhi zhi, ting ting tong and jun jun

swan sisters- zhi zhi, ting ting tong, jun jun and jasmine

black out. black out. part II

2006-06-02T13:05:00.000+08:00

hmm today ar, that something special happened in RP again. see what happens when you are wirless, budget constraint type of poly in a new campus. blackout!

lesson to learn again. please bring your battery along and put inside the laptop. battery is not a display item at home or in bag. save your presentation or else you can pass-away and forget about doing third presentation if blackout happen again. one good example of not listening is eliza jie. =X

but makes me think, was RP built way too rush? and is RP behind time for bills? hmmm. wad u all think?

W36L madhouse!

2006-06-01T22:25:00.000+08:00

one more day till holiday liao. one more day till my last understanding test ends, sadly UT is an ongoing cycle, cannot stop de. i cant express the relief that is finally flowing through me. i finally got more time to concentrate on other stuff like my bass! i miss my bass guitar. that poor baby sitting there, untouch for 4-5 days le. =X

friendship wise, im glad that the storm all over. really, i can tell you how much that incident has been dragging me, making my spiritual growth slightly of course and even study life also. but after what i read on her blog, the thank you post, and the part where "all i have to say is that i will remember this people for LIFE. :)", i feel so touched and happy, tears of joy almost streamed down my face. sometimes it worth it to stick through thick and thin with someone. despite the "slaps in the face", friendships and bonds grow stronger from that. this are things that you will have to appreciate for life. =D

next thing, i cant help feeling guilty over mag da-jie health condition. i gave her panadine or paraceutomol to relief her magraine BUT her stomach feels funny now. oh no, i just hope the medicine i gave wasnt expired ba. =X. anyways, da-jie i'll be praying for your speedy recovery so you can go save de world. =P

ooo lastly, part of the W36L madhouse will be going out for outing (dinner) tomm. yea! whahaha. here is the version 1 of the madhouse chart done by her. gonna have improvements to it soon though. xD

Version 1

Version 2

black out. black out.

2006-05-31T23:05:00.000+08:00

hmm today ar, something special happened in RP. see what happens when you are wirless, budget constraint type of poly in a new campus. blackout!

before the stupid blackout happen, word was that the energy center carrying all the musical instruments of the various CCA like CO, wind symphony, the whole music@ RP division was flooded. flooded to one foot depth liddat? my gosh i pity all those instruments. espically those that cost a bomb. pass-away!

one lesson learnt, dont keep yur personal instrument in school. even so, insure the instrument also. hehe. so i dont need exprain why and how you should keep your instrument.

another thing lesson to learn. please bring your battery along and put inside the laptop. battery is not a display item at home or in bag. save your presentation or else you can pass-away and forget about doing third presentation if blackout happen again.

but actually verbal team to team presentation is better a. sorry mag da-jie, dont chop me for saying that. quite fun to do that and it saves time! save time as in you wont have people asking nonsensical, rhetorical, redundant questions. whahaha. =D

with that i end with a word, "dough-saur"

dedication to girls.

2006-05-30T23:45:00.000+08:00

the following dedication is given to girls that have been special and meaningful to me in my life. they come from different routes and professions in life, and have been outstandingly acheiving in their fields or characteristics. not in merit or order. =D

rp.alice
rp.eliza
rp.esther
hope.rp.jasmine
rp.joey
rp.jun
rp.magdeleine
rp.pamela
rp.siti
hope.rp.sharon
rp.wida
rp.widiah
rp.weizhi
rp.xiangting
hope.np.yi wei

well, guys i hate to admit it but i guess i have to. girls are better than guys. im a guy and i dare say that. they are more caring, concerning and sensitive towards certain issues than us. they have helped me more than i ever could in various aspects. that i will always be thankful for. so blessed to have them around honestly.

thus girls, this post is just for you all! xD

déjà vu

2006-05-30T22:45:00.000+08:00

i had déjà vu today. real bad one n good one. things I dun expect to happen, than I expect to happen also, than in the end happen. alamak. what am i saying? only doing reverse pyschology on my own. =X

the majorly bad déjà vu after UT today. finished my biochem UT and it didn feel any different from the first time either. im just hoping i can sustain a good enough grade to continue on with my academic life in RP. guess even darren is doing beta than me now, haiz. man, i needa stuff facts into my head and think simple for UT like esther said.

what i didnt really expect also happen. today for the first time, a facilitator wrote a testimonal for me wo. this one really unique and special. something i will keep and treasure for my life wo. who is that faci? some chio bu, ppg faci called magdeleine a.k.a Blossom. but she is really nice lo. like da jie to me all along, helping me with my friendship issues. cool rite?

well on the other frontier, i guess things are starting to get back between me n her. we are finally starting to talk to each other, took taxi back tog. man, i need this light hearted moments to calm me down. but what i can offer to her now i guess to help her like any good friend would. being a good friend first is more important than anything to me. =D

with this i end saying, "dough-saur"!

2am crossroads.

2006-05-29T14:00:00.000+08:00

"2 am, and the rain is falling, here we are the crossroads once again..."

yea im in that place once again, not knowing which street to turn too, seemingly lost in the middle of now where. once again, i look upon that familiar junction, the avenue which ive been before. to turn left or right. to move in which direction i dunno. seems like ive been moving around in circles. to me life hasnt been all the more pleasent, neither has avoiding been an option. crossing over to the lane, a lane away from life would be best. a lane where things go your way, where its just a peaceful ride on the highway with a beautiful way.

someone please slap me awake from this one sided dream but hit me in a way not too hard that i dont face the pain of reality now. i can tell you it doesnt hurt, it doesnt. but to be able to feel, sense, taste or have all 5 sense back in me is what i long for.god i really wish this period ends, god i dunno how long i can hold on to this fragile life. save me. im losing this race honestly.

"Dough-saur"

dough-saur!

2006-05-28T20:35:00.000+08:00

today i pretty much had a lot of last minute paperwork to clear for my children in sunday school as it was a day where badges where being awarded for the hard work and effort that they put in. of coz, it makes me proud as a teacher to see them do well. yes, teaching children is fun! i feel so relieved once im in their prescence. the joy of kids i guess? being one myself too. =X

well i wasnt really a good teacher though. missin half the time or should I say hiding in the toddler's room resting while watching brother dan's kid playing and fooling around. mami evangeline had a hard time controlling that fella. she was so persistent in trying to get him to the beef- porridge with marmide. looked nice? =P. makes u wonder, why do baby's love marmide so much? hmm... btw, i always use to call it chicken dropping to suan my sister stef but she never got scared of it though till now, NOW. =D

i couldnt sleep much, coz half the time i was worrying bout jadeniah attempting to spit some porridge on my face and the half coz i was busy chatting with mami evangeline and sis kimberly. we were busy trying to get jadeniah to learn how to say dinosaur but we kept on hearing the word "dough" or "do".

suddenly, as if from no where, like i was hearing things, the three of us heard jadeniah suddenly say "dough-saur". my gosh, that was a miracle. so cute, jadeniah said "dough-saur" instead of dinosaur. but amazingly, his progressing quite fast a. come to think of it from the first time i saw him. his gonna turn 1 soon!

with this i leave with the word, "dough-saur".

the oh-so good feeling for the first time in a long while

2006-05-27T18:35:00.000+08:00

its been a while since I had a oh-so good feeling pass through me. things havent been to easy for in life for me. For appetizers, the warm dish of bass noodles. For the main course, had a cold plate of friendship that was being serve to me in my dinner table. For drinks, a cup of C+ graded "RP UT" brand of wine.

Now where's my dessert? Where's that sweet dish which concludes the meal I've been looking for?

Today I finally tasted the sweetness of dessert that I've been wanting to be served for a long long time. That oh-so good feeling that we get from eating a dessert finally came during my bass lesson today. I managed to play along with the song correctly, get my tempo right. Sweet taste of bass in symphony! But it came at a price. The price was a "wake up call" from Jem Toh.

What was the wake up call? Simple in words, difficult to handle emotionally. He told me "can u segment ur emotions and watever u need to do, things cannot siam one face it, and dun mix it with other things that are not related". Well, after filling my stomach full of "unhealthy" food, to eat a good dish was what I needed.

I managed to put away all the stress and play my bass with heart and soul connected together. One thing I learnt now, time to segment my emotions, face it and solve it. It will be hard trying to face that touchy issue between me and her, and getting that close friendship back but I guess its time I have to.

I dunno whether the person is actually reading this post or anything, but if you are, I'm sorry. I clearly wish and sincerely want things back to the way they were. To the beginning where that affinity in our friendship exsisted. Could we have all that yet start anew?

Understanding what "Never Take Friendship Personal" means

2006-05-26T23:05:00.000+08:00

I just really understood what it meant to "Never Take A Friendship Personal" first hand. I tell you the feelings hurts, it makes it hard for you to move on and it makes you want to do stupid things there after. Trust me, first hand from Jonathan Liew. Now let me share that experience with you.

What happen was that I have been close to this certain friend, who happens to be a girl for quite some time. To be exact, we have known each other for 1 semester+ 8 weeks (this year, first sem). But we only got closer to each other as friends or had a more "personal friendship" much later or recently during the break between the year 1 & 2 studies.

But all these seems to have came to an end, crushed and burned, come what may you use to describe the destruction of something. What happen was that there was a slight misunderstanding from my msn nick, that lead her to suspect that I like her. God, of all things the touchy issue of "I love you".

After knowing her so long, there is no way I can lie to her the real meaning of my personal message was about friendships in greater detail. She was like "hmn...if it is what i think.. i think you better not la..". Man, girls are smart creatures made from GOD above. Guess what? I managed to lie to her, it was not good of me to. Neither was it fun to do so to your closest friends amongst you.

Eventually, as usual the emotion called "guilt" sets in. In my good friend Encarta, guilt is defined as the/an awareness of having done wrong or committed a crime, accompanied by feelings of shame and regret. I was like a criminal of doing such a thing to her. Thus when guilt reaches the max in your Central Nervous System (CNS), your body natural mechanism to counteract this is called "confession".

My CNS told me it was time and the right thing to tell the truth. Heart got override by the mind within me. I didnt want to, I prayed to GOD whether I should just tell her. In end, after much dilemma and internal fighting, I had to do what a man of GOD would have done. Telling the truth. So I DID. Putting it in words was any easier.

This is what I told her. "I was reflecting about what you said when I went home today. I just wanna tell you how I feel over that issue we were discussing over. My back part of the nickname was actually taken from songs that had no meaning literally, but just an expression of how I felt over friendships. I think by fact, its time that I stop living in denial that I am actually fond of you. I told GOD I never and now am stuck in this dilemma. However, I know that you don’t want to commit to r/s stuff and all that, so I respect that. In life now, I understand that there are many things that I believe GOD wants us individual’s to take priority over. For example, studies and him all the more before even wanting us to think about all this. Even as a girl, I bet you still have things you want to do before touching on r/s.I know my consequence of telling you such a thing can end either in two opposite directions. Guess that’s why time will tell or tear us apart. I just hope that you would know that I never ever wanted in anyway forced you, but just wanted to be a better friend to you. I guess this is also the very last semester I ever get to work with you and thus I really dunno how our friendship would go in the end also. But I want to thank you now all along for being patient with me, being a good friend that has been supporting me or bringing things in my life into a balance state. I thank GOD that I found someone like you at least all along. =)"

Well, Jon jon got the word said knowing the consequnces. Its really painstaken for me to do so. It hurts like a stab in my hurt, to say something I never wish to diffuse a situation. Yes I admit, I am fond of her. But being fond doesnt mean you like the person. Being fond means you admire a certain trait or charecteristics of that person. Overtime, who wouldnt be fond of someone? If not, you can be the next Kevin Yap for all I care. (Who is Kevin Yap, PM me personally)

Thereafter, we continue talking to each other. GOD, I wish I could fly, I wish I could cry, but there no emotion insida me. I just so didnt want to talk about that anymore. I bet neither did she. Now the end result is that this close friendship is "hanging on the balance".

I just feel really stupid, pathetic, moronic, idiotic, all the word to describe how low I feel of myself. Why the heck didnt I just deny all this within in the first place? I shouldnt have taken this friendship too personal?

Now thoughts and questions are left in my head. For now, Ive lost all practical human emotion and honestly have backslided I feel cause I wanna end this faith, etc.

Questions: Where and how will this friendship end? What will I do to get through life w/o her? Is this end of history for me?

"This is our last goodnight. Say what you will. Say all that you can. Words have no meaning. When I've seen where you've been. This is our last goodnight. Say what you will. Say all that you can. This is our last goodbye. This is where it ends" (The Symphony Of) Blasé- Anberlin

Thoughts:

"Time and time and time will tell. Time will tell or tear us apart. You're miles and miles and miles away. Silence reveals where we really are. Do you expect me to wait here?All alone in my thoughts and fears. My whole life could flash before your eyes. Hope one day that you realize, This isn't the way it's supposed to be. This is who I crown now without me, Your regrets from us built up inside. You only stayed to break my heart, I can tell it by the way you runaway,Runaway girl. You only stayed to break my heart, I can tell it by the way you runaway, Runaway girl. Runaway, runaway girl. I only stayed to break your heartYou can tell it by the way I walk away,Runaway girlI only stayed to break your heart, You can tell it by the way I run away,Runaway girl" The Runaways- Anberlin

"Innoncene gone, Never Take Friendship Personal" Never Take Friendship Personal- Anberlin

To that person, I'm sorry. I just hope that all gets back to way it was in the first place, when I knew the real you, when we were close to each other, "taking the bus, etc". Back to the way we were, without the awkwardness in our lives. Without all the pressures and restaints in our friendships. Sorry again.

New Look, New Skin

2006-05-23T22:55:00.000+08:00

Wallowz~!

I noe you people have been wondering whether this blog is offically dead or anything after a period of not posting anything? NO, it isnt!

It has been given a reconstruction and a touch of anberlin. Hee.

So people you like the new interface and all? Please give me constructive feedback, thanks!

De Sunday School Chornicles V: Amazing Race Easter Edition

2006-04-16T23:01:00.000+08:00

Yo people, how have you all been today? Man sunday is always the best day of the weekend for me. Not because I can slack, but its the day where I teach in the beloved sunday school~! I know Ive been saying that but Sunday is really the best day of the week for me.

But today was different, it was more special. Today was Easter Sunday! Yes Christ rose from dead! Woohoo! Salvation is here. Hehe. The CC had sumthin up their shoes though. They had The Amazing Race: Easter Edition. Wha, first time hear this kinda event rite? Hmm, teams had to go around doing various task talking about what GOD did for us. For example, things like Miracle & Ministry, Birth & Growing Up, Cruxification & Reseurrection.

The most fun was the Miracle & Ministry! So funny sia, the kids suppose to pick the correct miracles from the boz and paste on the whiteboard. Correct one's like "Jesus healed two blind man" and wrong, funnie ones like "Jesus healed a tax collector". Than later during the alter call, when Brother James did his trademark song "NO, NO, NO, NO, God's not dead!". No one including teachers will miss the memory of that song.

Now its time for picture's man! Ive been waitin to show u all me n my kids! Correction, the kids I teach. Not mine. =X

Gloria's Class (Look at her smile. SWEETS! =X)

Birth & Growing Up (Victor why u act so guai n serious? :P)

Miracle & Ministry (Look how attentive those kids are in doing the task. Cool rite?)

The Biggest Class I ever will teach in CC. My primary 4s of CC4!

Lastly, the best class I can ever teach! My CC5 Kids!

In closing, teaching in children has bought me a different joy. A fatherly sorta joy in tt sense and I will never regret. It makes my day, when I see the wide eye wanderment within those eyes. Haha. Happy Easter people!

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Life Concert 06

2006-04-13T01:00:00.000+08:00

The following adaptations and portions were bought foward because of the lazy bug in me. =X
The account is based on what happened in SAJC on Friday, April 7th at apporximately 1800 hours onwards.

From Left to Right: Vanessa, Jenn, Jaslyn, Wei Cheng (Blocked) , Justin, ME, Christopher, Darren

"My cell and I attended Life Concert yesterday and we had an awesome time there! It was such a pleasure to be invited there and to be part of the entire event which saw many youths responding to the altar call and recieving Christ into their lives. The music was good, the message was good, the congregation was good, the soundman (Jenn) was good.. Though everything was good in that place, God was even better!!" - Justin

"It started with a bang at SAJC's Life Concert. I didn't expect to experience anything "spiritual" from behind the sound board, but the experience of watching people go crazy about Jesus is quite a stir. It was their 6th Life Concert, but the first in the new SAJC." - Jenn

All these quotes werent the highlight though.

"One of the surprises of the gig was Justin giving testimony. " - Jenn

I guess what I remembered most about Justin testimony was the part where he received 3 bibles instead of one! Haha, bro the crowd was slow with your joke. Not you to fast. But the point is that your testimony definitely did minister to the crowds of students, yound adults like us too. Love you bro!

Hmm, for those who missed it. Too bad! =X. There is next year tho. Whahaha! =D

F.Y.I:

Who is this Justin?

"Justin is a former drug addict who went in and out of drug rehabilitation centres, half-way houses and prison throughout his teenage years. He experienced God in his cell of a maximum security prison where he was put in solitary confinement for the first 2 months of his 23 months sentence. Justin accepted Christ after he was released from prison in March of 2004 and slowly kicked his addiction to drugs, smoking and alcohol. Today, Justin is happily serving in the Young Adult's ministry in Grace Assembly of God. The smile that you now see on his face and the joy that is expressed in his words comes from no other person than the Lord Jesus who delivered him from his darkest periods. Praise the Lord! "

He is my current cell leader of the RP cell. Indeed, I do thank GOD for him and the testimony barred through his life. He is really a dynamic and cool person once you get to know him better!

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Things We Shouldn't Do All The Time.

2006-04-12T22:00:00.000+08:00

The fellowing adaption is taking from my godbrother's blog Daniel. And I decided its time I made a stand like him. READ! =D

"To play dota or not to play? That is a good question. I hope this will help some of you guys who are hooked onto the game. I'm gonna state my viewpoint here. Dota is not an evil game(as in the content itself). But anything we do, we must do with moderation. I agree, the game is fun, even I was hooked on the game since last August till this March where I made a personal conviction that I will not make Warcraft my World. Lol. But as I look back, was it worth all that time on a game? I could have done loads of stuff to improve myself, and improve my relationships with Family, Friends and most importantly God. Now whenever I play I feel the sense of guilt. I'm glad I'm controlling it very well. Ha. There are so many more things to do in our lives. Once in a while for socializing is good fun.I'm glad I made that stand. I feel so much better. I'm doing so much more with my time now lol. Relationships are so important. To those who are still hooked on, go reflect. Lol."

Not because D is my godbrother and I am biase, but I kinda agree with him on what he says.
LET's start with me. I admit I was addicted to DOTA like him. Personally I felt that the game is ok to play to socialise, BUT it gets dangerous when you are addicted. The more you play, the more you have that mentality in your head "oh it's ok to socialise through this game", the more it lures you into the world where WARCRAFT overtakes GOD, family, friends, etc. Everything is placed on the line. The addiction can be as bad as drugs. Its like people can get so addicted to the game that they take it too seriously and quarrels often come up. Just like Liang Zhi commented on D's blog.

Like newton's law, "every action must have an opposite and equal reaction" right? The very same scientific theory applies to me. Everything I say must have ACTION. ACTION speaks louder than WORDS. So I've decided to cut less on DOTA, more concentration on more fun things in life. Like bass guitar practice, going out with friends, family time. "There are so many more things to do in our lives. " and I agree.

BOOYAH! =X

Ok anyway, I know I havent really updated this blog for a long long long while. I apologise coz I have a tight schdule due to Children Church Commitments and other activites. I promise I'll try my best to blog as much as I can, to give you all some interesting insights from blogs I read or from books I'm reading now like Case For Christ, Case For Faith, Case For Creator, 2Live4, 2Die4 and Divine Revelations of Heaven.

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De Sunday School Chornicles IV

2006-03-26T23:35:00.000+08:00

Yo people, how have you all been today? Man sunday is always the best day of the weekend for me. Not because I can slack, but its the day where I teach in the beloved sunday school~! I know Ive been saying that but Sunday is really the best day of the week for me!

Well, pretty much a mixed emotions within in me today. This is because Ive been hit with good and bad news at the same time to do with my service at children church. As always the bad news first lo. =X

I only found this out on her birthday which was today. My co-teacher Joanne might be leaving for America for a two year period due to work. Wha... The moment I heard that my heart really ached. It was painful. Joanne taught me since I was Primary 4 in sunday school and now we are the "partners in crime", teaching P4s. And I kinda felt sad that she didn wanna tell me, when the rest of the teachers we were lunching with knew about it. :'( ! At that moment, flashbacks just came back. Memories of the times when she taught me in Sunday School till the time I suan her when she was my co-teacher in class or during CC meetings. I couldnt help but cry. BUT, I will keep the tears till she confirms leave. =D.

Another news was that Brother James and Sister Angeline are stepping down or "retiring" from teaching in Children Church. Well at least I thank GOD for their services all these years, teaching batches that have grown into leaders now. All the way from batch to batch. But I guess their wish would be for young people like me to step up and take the helm of teaching. But it still kinda saddened me, coz they are like "strongholds" or the "pillars" that have been there for CC.

But what cheered me up when I was lunching with Bro Daniel & Sister Evangeline, Sister Joanne & Brother Bertand. All married couples, who have taught me before. I tell you arh, being the only single there, is so NOT a GOOD thing. =X. Yes, they all bully me over lunch over certain confidential issues. Stupid sia me, mentioned that Im the only single there. Of all things that topic. Bleahs. =X. But it was so funny lor, the way Brother Daniel had attempted to extract infomation from me after I said "For me to know, for you to find out." over those confidential issus. He promised me in a humorous matter that he will go all out to find out about it. Even if it means, going to their parties involved. LOL! But I just told him the answers to the questions in the end, as I knew that there are people I can trust. I HOPE! =P

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Busy Busy Busy

2006-03-21T00:05:00.000+08:00

yO, people i know i haben been blogging recently. This blog is not dead!

Coz Ive been very busy of late. Burning midknight oil as Im trying to finish up all the proposal of the games, worship and activities. Well, service for GOD comes with sacrifices but its GOOD! Haha, a lot oh things happened dring the week man. Some time Im proud of and others that Ive been rather upset bout. But my spirit is still high.

Well, last week a close family friend had been called to the LORD. Well, heavens a better place tho. Whats more saddening is that they wanted to leave her body there and were only interested in the material possesions like they took her ATM, things that were worth $. Really saddening. The 'best' thing is that they asked the Pastor whether they could leave the body there or could he do caretaking for them. I just pray that GOD be merciful on her family memebers and they will repent of their misdeeds.

Now for better and more happening news. Harhar.

Jasmine and Yiwei who are two close friends I got to know in RP where Im studying, managed to get the spiritual burdens of them off.

Jasmine felt she needed to move on to any church which is HOPE as she wanted to serve GOD better, in the ministry and grow more spiritually. But she couldnt tell her man. In the end, she DID! Amen! Yiwei managed to tell her parents that she was attending church. Thank GOD, they were rather receptive in some ways and did not persecute her to the max. Amen!

Proud and happy for this two girls! Just the news that can spur my weekend on! Well, learning lesson is that dont give up or be discouraged just because you are persecuted, GOD's timing will come for you. From things like telling your parents you accepted christ or needing to move on to grow spiritually, GOD has a timing!

Amen!

Well, as for me thing are improving slow in ways. Life seems to be slow paced yet steady. So is my growth. Hehe!

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Fire!

2006-03-16T00:05:00.000+08:00

woOt. feeling like a revived guitarist now I say Im on fire. Listen to a song on my ITunes. Its called fire by Delirious?

Delirious?- Fire

Fire burning from the outside to the inside out.
There's a feeling leading, pleading.
Follow where it goes,
Excess baggage falling, crawling.
Throw it all away.
My redemption actual, factual.
Happening today.

Holding on, to everything we have.
Say goodbye to everything we love.

I, I, I believe,
That the fire is here today.
I, I, I believe,
Now the smoke in my eyes,
Has blown away. (That the fire is here to stay)

Digging deeper there's a well,
The years have tried to hide.
Blood red freedom in my veins,
Get ready for the ride.

Tide is turning, yearning, burning,
Urging us to go.
Freedom people moving, grooving,
Never turning back.

Feel it, feel it coming on.
Have some fear, 'cos the heat is on.
Watch it comming from the sky,
He's riding in on his chariot of fire.
Feel it, feel it don't give up.
We're holding up this burning cup.
Hear it, hear it shake the ground,
The freedom people make their sound.

I, I, I believe,
That the fire is here today.
I, I, I believe,
Now the smoke in my eyes,
Has blown away. (That the fire is here to stay)

Revived Guitarist!

2006-03-15T12:45:00.000+08:00

Well, today had the chance to go out with Johann, Justin and Ah Qiang. Well, I was out looking for a new acoustic electric guitar. Was eyeing on a few brands like Alvarez, Taylor and Martin & Co. Of coz, alvarez being out of league of Martin & Co. and Taylor. Those brands are two of the three top players in the market which is Martin & Co. ,Taylor and Larrivee.

We started of going to the guitar shops at the Paradiz and Peace centre at Selegie. I finally gotta see and try the Timothy at Stillwater. Man it sounded warm, real value for money also. But sadly they did not have the Taylor model I was looking for. Wasted. =(. Than we went to Citi Music to try the Martin's, and it was way better than the Timothy. When I tried one, Johann said I bet you forgotten what the timothy had sounded like and it was true. Sounded more warm and it was a real sweetie. But so expensive! Haha, everything comes at a price tho.

After that, our gang walked, WALKED to Swee Lee. Haha, good excercise though. But I wasnt really impressed by the acoustics there when I tried cause they were of the norm, not something I was looking for. When we left, had dinner with them at Mcdonalds. All of places fastfood but still must thank GOD for the food he provides us with. Ah Qiang and Justin went their seperate ways while me and Johann walked to Living Strings.

I tell you the guitars in Living Strings live up to their name. The Alvarez, Zions, Tanglewood and Breedlove. The Alvarez was sweet and warm but it had a big hole but due to the pre amp. Johann also commented about it. But when I tried the Breedlove he was playing with, I wont say I fall in love with it but it was the best of the day. It was that guitar I was looking for. But it cost 2.3k! Aye, Im gonna get broke. Really broke. But hah, Im still gonna save up and practice as hard as I can to make sure I can be of that standard to hold one. =)

Lastly, we tried out Maestro and Matons. This two were value for money yet sounded nice and way better than the Timothy. My minds pretty settled for the Breedlove already. No regrets, that baby is sweet! After all the guitar viewing and trying, I felt like a revivied guitarist. One that is on fire!

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Deeper

2006-03-14T01:15:00.000+08:00

Delirious?- Deeper

I want to go deeper
But I don't know how to swim
I want to be meeker
But have you seen this old earth?
I want to fly higher
But these arms won't take me there
I want to be, I want to be

Maybe I could run
Maybe I could fly, to you
Do you feel the same
When all you see is
Blame in me?

And the wonder of it all is that
I'm living just to fall
More in love with you
And the wonder of it all is that
I'm living just to fall
More in love with you

I want to go deeper
But is it just a stupid whim?
I want to be weaker
Be a help to the strong
I want to run faster
But this old leg won't carry me
I want to be, I want to be

Maybe I could run
Maybe I could fly, to you
Do you feel the same
When all you see is
Blame in me?

And the wonder of it all is that
I'm living just to fall
More in love with you
And the wonder of it all is that
I'm living just to fall
More in love with you

Maybe I could run
Maybe I could follow
It's time to walk the path
Where many seem to fall
Hold me in your arms
Just like any father would
How long do we have to wait?
How long, we're going all the way

And the wonder of it all is that
I'm living just to fall
More in love with you
And the wonder of it all is that
I'm living just to fall
More in love with you

Yea, I was listening to this song and I really like the lyrics man. "And the wonder of it all is that I'm waiting just to fall more in love with you". Day by day, I realised Im falling more and more in love with GOD and my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ! Hehe. =X.

De Sunday School Chornicles III

2006-03-12T21:45:00.000+08:00

Yo people, how have you all been today? Man sunday is always the best day of the weekend for me. Not because I can slack, but its the day where I teach in the beloved sunday school~! Had a CC4 meeting this morning and it was so fun, interactive but more serious tone tho.. =X

Today Joanne was teachin the kids about the Future Life. It is about the things that will happen after Jesus' return and the joys of heaven. Things that will happen after the rapture, The Tribulation, the Second Coming, The Millennium and The Judegement, End of Millenium and The New Heaven and the New Earth.

But the emphasis was what would should to do like acceprint God's work through being ready for his promises and doing God's work by loving God.

Well, after that had the chance to meet and talk with a girl called Qing Xiu that was teaching the preteens. She's a cool girl who came to know Christ through street evangelism. I thank GOD at least she's a christian now. Mmm, really enjoy getting to know her. Hehe! But I feel that she has the potential to become a sunday school teacher and I invited her to watch me in the action of teaching the next lesson. ^^

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Guitar Progress Update

2006-03-11T01:45:00.000+08:00

Its been two weeks since Ricky told me he would stop teaching me and Joel Tay, a nice former ACSian himself agreed to faciliate me despite his busy workload and schdule.

Well, I really wanna thank god that my progress has been much more and a lot beta. Hmm I wonder, is it because of the holidays? Nah, it's the grace of our merciful God. I can now play harder songs like King of Majesty and You Are My World! Coolness man.

Faciliatator Joel Tay told me to listen and play along with the song. He said that "it's probalby the most IMPORTANT SKILL in music playing. LISTENING. and it's not just about playing hte right chords, it's about strumming right, about expression etc...so LISTEN and PLAY ALONG.you'll improve if you try, really. that's how i learned. and if ricky continued teaching, he'd say the same thing.most of us are self-taught. then with what we have, we go around and ask for more... search the net, etc..."

Above basically sums up what I need to know, what I dont know for now and what I need to find out. The FMT of guitar learning. Btw, FMT stands for first meeting template which is used in RP Problem Base Learning system to see what you know, what you dont know and what you need to find out. Listening is the SOUL of guitars. ^^

O yea, Johann a.k.a hann has been nice enough to also give me tips to aid me. When I was down cause my fingers were physically slow and mentally dull in response to doing a barre chord as if it was a result of tiredness, disease, or drugs. =P. But, he told me to place the fingers first before barring. Thanks GOD, it worked! Haha, God has been good by providing people like Johann! One thing I forgot to mention, Johann is the brother of Joel.

The 'Alvarez Brothers' originating from the TAY family have been really sweet and nice to help me in my guitar progress in small or big ways through impromptu lessons to small tips. =). Thanks you Johann and Joel! I know that GOD has already used them to minister in my life. But, I also think they will be used great and mightyly in other aspects within his Kingdom too!

But I believe all honor goes to GOD. One fact is that at such a age I am blessed to learn guitar without it becomin white elephant, its really amazing. Now Jonathan is a guitar addict for christ!

Credits:

GOD

'Alvarez Brothers'- Joel and Johann

Ricky ( Somewhere in that Daniel Heng's depature pictue)

Heng

P.S: Heng, Im one step close to fufilling that vow! I wont let you down. Its our promise for GOD!
Hope you do well in yoru studies despite studyin university triple science. =P

Right On Time

2006-03-06T02:00:00.000+08:00

Was doing my QT today, which I admit I havent been doing or just started of recent. =x. Well, better late than never. ^_^. Anyway was going throuhg Everyday with Jesus, and today's topic titled 'Right on Time'.

'Right on time' looked into the perspective that Jesus realising that the time was not right for certain situations. For example, when Jesus mother Mary had 'pressed' him to do something about the wine, his instant reply was 'my time has not come yet'. Just made me wonder why Jesus said that, but I realised that he had a purpose. He was indirectly saying that the divine hour of his cruicification had not come and was going to perform the miracle eventually.

When I reflected on that, I questioned myself. Sometimes we do not move according to God's perfect will and timing, and we just go ahead foolishly or try to make the timing faster without GOD's favour. Issues like rushing into relationships due to peer pressure, attempting to academically do well and outwit others.

My prayer for everyone inlcuding myself is that we are able to move in harmony with GOD's perfect will and timing. That we wont be foolish to rush his time and be enabled to do the same thing as what Jesus has done, so that we will be in line or synchornised with his purposes.
Amen.

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Staying in the will of God

2006-03-04T23:45:00.000+08:00

Erm, sorry people was suppose to pose with the new bass I have today and post it. BUT, I didn't get it. Long story why...

Anyway, went for my usual YA service today. Its kinda weird that Pastor Kieran aint around for these two weeks. Im used in his prescence I admit indeed, be it in Young Adult Service, RP cell. But Pastor Kieran is currently with the REAL team on Missions in Indonesia and they are expected to return on Monday, 3.20 pm at Terminal One, Flight No. VF 506. I know that they are doing God's good work there, so R-AGER's pray for their journey mercy back and the caputring of many souls to know GOD!

Today the preacher was Pastor Cuixian! For those who dunno who Pastor Cuixian is, she is the bubbly, chubby, cute looking female pastor of R-AGE! =P. She is in charge of Cells & CAMY in the Youth Ministry with a growing congregation of 180 youths ranging from ages 13 to 16 years and oversees 23 youth cell groups. That's a LOT!

Her sermon was titled Staying In The Will of God- Things that will draw you away from the focus

So she spoke 4 key areas that will draw us away from the focus of the perfiect will of GOD.
They were
a) Family Ties
b) Sex, Money
c) Power
d) Emotional Entaglements

The one that moved my heart the most was the area of emotional entaglements. Well, I'm melacholic. So normally it will be really harder for me to cope emotionally with things and I go haywire spiritually, my mental state will be like a person who is suffering depression. BUT, not to extent I go mad. I gotta admit, I have been hiding a lot of emotional buggage within myself, refusing to tell anyone or the 'world of friends' as Carlsberg would call it. When she said that emotional buggage will affect you spiritually, I so agreed with her statement. Amen x 1000!

In my past, Ive been hiding a lot of emotional buggage, refusing to deal with it. I guess that was I like to term as 'self denial'. The refusal of admitting I have such problems. What did it do? It caused me to backslide and draw away from GOD. Its reality I still face NOW, and we are mere mortals or human. We will face emotional buggage. However, there is a way to deal with it! Submit all these emotional buggages to GOD and than speak to your pastors, cell leaders or friends that are spiritually mature enough. That's the way to go... =)

Yea, I guess that sermon really spoke to me a lot. Now I have decided to fully submit my emotional issues to GOD and seek the advice of someone. =).

GOD, I want to be a good servant and stay in the perfect will of yours! Amen!

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Commitments

2006-03-03T23:30:00.000+08:00

Yo, people how are you all? Kinda realised that so far all is well during march. Mmmm. Hmm I finally finish school! Today was my last day! Haha.. Freedom is in the air! I need a well deserve break man. But with freedom comes a price, the price of commitment for me. =P

Was reading Jenn's blog on the post titled, "Splattering Jam on the Dance Floor ". That title caught my attention totally man. Here's what he said below.

"We were suppose to jam this evening, but I had to call it off because of the RL meeting. Liang and Vern were quite disappointed (I am sure Caleb also). Everyone including me were looking forward to it. That meeting just slipped my mind and I was only reminded thru an e-mail that CX sent. Sad I may be, but I am very encouraged and touched to see the passion that my friends have for the band. We have not played together for such a long time. I am sure we're more rusty than Russian Tank

But I know my priorities. The Cell ministry is my priority. I encouraged Liang to take the lead and gather the guys and have a go without me. Thebaby will be due in about 3 months. It's as good as 3 months before retiring from the scene, unless we find ways to jam on weekdays where everybody's schedule meets. I really don't know how it will be after this 3 months. But I am praying that we'll find time to jam."

Well, I gotta admit of late I have been struggling with commitment. Espically the prioritising part with commitment. =P. You see my commitments within Children Church (CC) will always have a tendacy to clash with Young Adult stuff. I love both equally and they mean a lot to me in my heart.

For example, I am part of the Vacation Bible Camp Planning committee and was assigned to take charge of activites/games/worship. Hmmm three task to be fufill by two people? That's one heck of a workload if you look at it from one perspective. I choose another perspective tho. Hehe. But within my assigned task, I have subcommittee meetings that will clash with YA Cell. What best is that I had meeting and a 'make up' cell meeting that clashed.However, the informal meeting was also kinda unconfirmed due to the fact that they are working adults unlike me a student, where my schdule is more flexible compared to theirs.

When I told Darren that, he was wanting me to give him an answer FAST whehter I could attend cell. I couldnt give him an answer fast honestly, but I tried my best to. I just hope he understands or consider the fact that they are working adults, and some just got new jobs making them inflexible compared to students. Thus it would be really hard for me to call them and ask them for a FAST answer logically.

BUT the point is that this could have been avoided if I had priortised my commitments! So I decided to come with my own commitment action plan. This is how it goes.

Firstly, it would be the Young Adult Minstry and family. Things like YA cell, YA service come before any commitments. I agree with what Justin told me that I need an input source, since I have output. However, at times the family commitments would be more important over YA. That is understandable.

Secondly, my children church commitments come next. For example, if there is a program like NT survey or bible study, Berry jam which is not compulsory that clashes with CC. I would go for my CC meetings or events instead over those.

Lastly, my personal things. If I have things like academics, or music lessons that cannot be postphoned or delayed by a month or within a certain timeline, it would take priority over things that are of less importance.

However, I would like to make it very clear that my input would come from YA. The
commitment action plan can be subject to change and is just a guideline only.

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Happy Founders Day ACSianS~!

2006-03-02T07:30:00.000+08:00

Yo, sup people? Yesterday or March 1st is ACS founder's day. I was a former ACSian lad myself. Though my Barker years werent that glorifying, I still have ACS blood in me! Haha. So to those ACSians, happy founder's day. In days of yore indeed...

ACS Anthem

In days of yore from western shores
Oldham dauntless hero came
and planted a Beacon of Truth and Lightin this island of the Main.

Here may it stand from year to year
emblem of grand endeavour
The regions round echo the sound
of A.C.S. forever.

Sing A.C.S. forever more,
our A.C.S. forever.
God save our land and heaven bless
our A.C.S. forever.

Our students hail from China's plains
and the Land of Rising Sun.
We have many sons from India's strandand the islands of the Main.
Our hearts our hopes our aims are one.
No discord e'er will sever.
We'll stand together for the causeof A.C.S. forever.

Sing A.C.S. forever more,
our A.C.S. forever.
God save our land and heaven bless
our A.C.S. forever

March The Month Of Revival

2006-03-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

Y0 people, march is here already! Haa. Man I tell this time when Jonathan says he is back for good, he really is. x).

March is my month of revival. Good news, I am spirtually back on track. My spiritual kit plans are getting back. Started clearing and organise my cell kit, sermon notes, spiritual jorney. Man it feels GoOD! Its GoOd.

I know I had rather stormy weather, faced a burren desert during the few weeks within Febuaray. But GUESS what? Im stronger than before this time, and more enegrise. The synergy has grown by at least 200% within me in life. Man I really want that synergy to continue within me, that flame that just continue igniting within it me that it will not die out die to fatigue, stress.

Im HYPER! Hyped up for GOD! Nothing is gonna change that, nothing will every change that.
In March, I promise you that you will see a new and more dynamic Jonathan. Coz everything's changed and everything's different once you open up your life. Man, there's nothing better than living for GOD. wOoHoo! Everything is going to change and I know that! CHANGE!

SO, March is the Month of Revival. =)

Planet Shakers- Everything's Changed

You ask me why
Why Im so different
Why Im not the same as everybody else
Well something changedIt just happened
When I opened up my heart and let Him in
Jesus came in he came into my life
And I know I never felt so good.

Cause
Everythings changed
Everything is different
Everythings changed
Everything is different
Everythings changed
Everything is different
Everythings changed
Everything is different

Now
You ask me how
How I can be sure
How I know its not just something else for fun
Cause Hes so real
So real in my life
He picked me up and turned my universe around

Cause
Everythings changed
Everything is different
Everythings changed
Everything is different
Everythings changed
Everything is different
Everythings changed
Everything is different

Everything, everything, everything in my lifes changed
Everything, everything, everything in my lifes different

Cause
Everythings changed
Everything is different
Everythings changed
Everything is different
Everythings changed
Everything is different
Everythings changed
Everything is different

The One Im Waiting For...

2006-02-28T07:45:00.000+08:00

Relient K- The One Im Waiting For

The way that girl can break a heart
Its like a work of art
And this is the worst part
She knows it

And shes so confident
That shes what everybody wants
But nobody wants Her to know that

So fall back on all of your premonitions
And just learn to listen
To those that have more wisdom than you
And just stop
Putting so much stock
In all of this stuff
Live your life for those you love

And Im still waiting for
You to be the one
Im waiting for

The way that girl can turn a head
Well she is such a threat
But dont ever forget
She knows it
And shes got it all
All figured out
And she wont let you doubt
She knows it

Im still waiting for
You to be the one Im waiting for
Im still waiting for
You to be the one Im waiting for

So fall back on all of your premonitions
And just learn to listen
To those that have more wisdom than you
And just stop
Putting so much stock
In all of this stuff
Live your life for those you love

Im still waiting for
You to be the one Im waiting for
Im still waiting for
You to be the one Im waiting for

Im still waiting for (Something tells me that this is going to make sense)
Something tells me its going to take patience
Im still waiting for (Something tells me that this will all work out in the end)
You to be the one Im waiting for

Man I just love this song. So hyped up with it everytime. =). Well, its kinda true actually. Im still waiting for that girl to be that someone Ive been waiting for in my life. But I will never rush God's timing though my heart doesnt wish to be single in my life for now I admit. =D.

Relieved...

2006-02-27T21:35:00.000+08:00

Man I feel so relieved...At least...

Well, I know its not a guy thing but I asked Darren to tell Amanda that it wasnt me who had been tagging all those. Well I thank God she said she knew that it wasnt me, maybe her response was not that exact but a typical Singaporean "ok i know la". Than she ask whether "was it very mean of me not to respond to tht?" and "oh so he's like very worried tht i'm pissed off or wad?". Hmmm...Read BELOW for the answer...

Than later she came online. She had that intention to clear things up over the whole blog tagging issue. Her response was "look. i wanna let u know tht the thing on my blog doesn't affect me.", "i honestly don't care if it was u or wasn't u", "so i guess u and i could just forget it", "and no, i'm not pissed off. just .. a lil annoyed". Aye, that was not the reply I was looking for. I admit I was a little shocked with what she typed, the tone was fierce.

Well, I knew I had to keep the explaination short. "i waited to said tt it was not mean of u not to respond", "coz i knew u have yur exams n did wanna bother u wif it", "n i noe u wun b pissed off over this..its just tt i dun wanna affect u over yur studies.." However, I had to apologise on my part coz I realise that mabbi my innocence came at the expense of the Amanda is some ways.

But you can tell that Amanda was also stressed up with her exams form the tone itself. "Welcome to mugger land". Hmmm..I just hope that things would clear up and we could be better friends. Well, Justin was saying that "hope evrythgs going good now" and "continue to pray abt it". I definitely will pray about it bro, for our friendship to be better, for her now that GOD give her spiritual, physical strength to be able to get through this stressful exam period in her life. =D

Lesson learnt: The one thing is that never do things at the expense of others or all those love ones around you.

De Sunday School Chornicles II: Bible Quest 2006!

2006-02-26T19:35:00.000+08:00

Yo people, how have you all been today? Man sunday is always the best day of the weekend for me. Not because I can slack, but its the day where I teach in the beloved sunday school~! Had a CC5 meeting this morning and it was so fun, interactive!

Today was the launch of the bible quest 2006 for CC! Man this year there are new features wham bam JAM packed to it. Man that makes it really fun compared to last year. The Bible quest 2006 is meant to pave the way to help the children in their quest for a servant heart.
There are four new campaigns this year. Each campaign has a theme to it like "Evangelism", "Discipleship", "Fellowship and Service", "Worship" and let the children earn titles like "Seeker of His Lost", "Keeper of his Word", "Befriender of His Word", "Proclaimer of His Glory". ULTIMATLY to be a "Steward of the RISEN Lord" and become more like Jesus. Sounds fun ey? =D

In the children's file this year they have a few NEW key features and revamped ones.

There is the usual monthly memory verse for them

A Revamped Point System

A Revamped Dilligent Task List

And in addition,

Portion of the Scripture

The Service Club

I tell you, I wish I had all this during my time man. How I wish I was a kid and had the joy of doing such a thing. =D. Even so, will I? =X. But my prayer is that the kids will be able to have a fun time learning the theme of service in love! YEAH!

ATTENTION: There is a person called "ANONYMOUS!" or someone who is using my blog tag name of "j0n^ liew" to defame or put words into my mouth when its really not my intentions. He has done so on Amanda's blog already and is pushing the spam to the limit. I apologise if you do recieve spam from that person. Whatever his intentions are I am not too sure. Please post this on yur own blogs to warn the rest. Thanks!

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News really just gets "better"

2006-02-24T22:45:00.000+08:00

My gosh man, events in my life really get "better and better" day by day. From someone using my name to defame or put words into my mouth when its really not my intentions to in Amanda's blog on her tagboard, came the worst news I can really have.

Ricky said he is no longer gonna teach me for guitars. This was really a blow man. The moment he sms me and told me bout that, I almost cried on the spot. ='(. I tried to convince him that once or twice a month was enough for me. BUT, he stood by his stand and said he really cannot. Told me to go yamaha or something where else to learn.

That moment I admit I was really ANGERED with him. My mind was like "Ricky, how could you do such a thing? Leave me in the lurch after two lessons. I thought you would be able to have lesson consistently like you said when you more free. Am I such a lousy student that you have to drop me?".

The next thing in my head was my godbrother (Dr.) Daniel Heng. I was like is the vow going to end because of me? I know he is at least doing his best by working hard now in his studies for health sciences, BUT what am I doing? The iresponsible jerk Jonathan here in Singapore is not fufilling or playing his part?

That night I could not sleep. I cried before I sleep. My eyes were BLOOD RED from that. Even worst than that time Daniel had left Singapore. At that moment, I tell you I was feeling very discouraged especially with a string of issues in my life right now ranging from impersonators to family issues, etc.

But I felt much better after listening to Delirious? Stronger off their recent album The Mission Bell.

Delirious?- Stronger

We're getting stronger everyday,
We're getting braver in every way,
Hallelujah here we come.

We're getting stronger everyday,
Push through the rains that fall our way,
Hallelujah here we come.

We're much stronger when we're one,
Hallelujah here we come.

Oh, I love You from the depths of my heart,
And nothing here will tear us apart.
Everything's beautiful with You,
Everything's beautiful, when You invade my life.
And I'm living just to say that 'I love You'.

We're getting closer everyday,
Chasing the dreams that heaven gave,
Hallelujah here we come.

We're getting closer everyday,
Into Your arms I'm here to stay.
We're much stronger when we're one,
Hallelujah here we come.

Oh, I love You from the depths of my heart,
And nothing here will tear us apart.
Everything's beautiful with You,
Everything's beautiful, when You invade my life.
And I'm living just to say that 'I love You'.

Yea, at least I can take comfort that Im getting stronger everyday through all these trails within my life. They come with a reason, AND that reason I believe is to grow stronger spiritually in aspects. In Chirst Alone, I place my trust that all these thing are for the better. NOT for the worst. Pray for me people, I will pray for you too! =)

ATTENTION: There is a person called "ANONYMOUS!" or someone who is using my blog tag name of "j0n^ liew" to defame or put words into my mouth when its really not my intentions. He has done so on Amanda's blog already and is pushing the spam to the limit. I apologise if you do recieve spam from that person. Whatever his intentions are I am not too sure. Please post this on yur own blogs to warn the rest. Thanks!

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Arh! Impersonated~!

2006-02-24T14:25:00.000+08:00

Wha, I cant believe it man. Hmpf~! Someone is using my name on Amanda's blog to say things I never wanted to say, things that are not of my intentions!

"dont make me doo what i don wanna doo. beri beri sad that u are ignoring meee."

But my concious is clear cut! I never did that tag on her blog. Man this really can make my day, people taking advantage of me after monitoring my weakness. I really dunno what this person want. But I can say that his/her typing style is different from mine in ways. People who have been chatting with me via IM know that full well.

I guess tagging this issue is really a waste of my time! God spoke to me, calmed my heart and told me to forgive those who has transpassed against you in ways as you have done to others. Whatever your intentions of doing so *annoymous* person, I will not persue that issue much as I know full well that Im innocent and GOD will be my witness.

All I can do is just pray that Amanda will know that I was innocent and that tag will not leave the wrong impression of me. It hurts when someone use my name to defame or put words into my mouth when its really not my inentions too, but In Chirst Alone I place my trust. Amen!

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Im BaX~!

2006-02-23T20:30:00.000+08:00

Yo people, how are you all? I know a lot of things happened within my life due to fatique of trying to meet up to my minstry and personal expectations over the pass few days. And I aint proud of it. BUT, Im gonna contradict what I have said, and tell you that Jonathan is moving on and Im BAX~!

Brian Littrell - In Christ Alone

In Christ alone will I glory
Though I could pride myself in battles won
For I've been blessed beyond measure
And by His strength alone I overcome
Oh I could stop and count successes
Like diamonds in my hands
But those trophies could not equal
To the grace by which I stand

In Christ alone I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory let it be said of me
My source of strength, my source of hope is Christ alone

In Christ alone will I glory
For only by His grace I am redeemed
And only His tender mercy Could reach beyond my weakness to my need
Now I seek no greater honor
Than just to know Him more
And to count my gains
But losses to the glory of my Lord

In Christ alone I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory let it be said of me
My source of strength, my source of hope is Christ alone

In every victory let it be said of me
My source of strength, my source of hope is Christ alone...

In the song it says In Christ Alone I place my trust, and this is what I will do.
I will place my trust in GOD to lead me and carry on from that rut and guide me along within my spiritual walk. People, lets spur each other on! =)

Dead from doing too much?

2006-02-22T07:15:00.000+08:00

Ive gotta be honest, I could have been dead by now from the fatique and stress of ministry, personal expectations but ironically I am still alive. Why? I guess I really wish to meet up to the people and personal expectations so that I will leave that impression at least that I am a growing christian and a person who serves willingly. But I guess it wouldnt be so, I left a whole bunch of longing impressions that I cant change or clear anymore. My anti-climax is at its peak over this few weeks.

Well, I guess by now the whole of Singapore should have known about the NYP sex scandal. For those who dont know, I wont empahsise much for discretion wise but the reality is that the NYP sex scandal video is being spread around like hotcakes. It just hit RP (i guess), as my classmates were like passing it around and were watching. They attempted to get me to join the crowd, temptation was at its max I tell. Somemore all this was happening during the anti- climax, "doldrum" of my life. Ironical to human nature, I did not concede to that temptation and said NO, stood by my faith! I thank GOD for that despite the stromy weather where I could have just easily fallen and drowned.

When I return home, I gotten to realise that there was a prayer list up for me. I thank Darren for intiating the prayer list for me.

"Hey cell,
As of late, Jon has been going through some problems. Both ministry and personal expectations. These expectations for him and by him has led to fatigue, and stress.
Please pray for Jon, for the following:
1)his quick recovery
2)to make the right decision(by askin God to help him)
3)not to let in to pressure so easily
4)that it will not affect his growth
5)for him to be more open about telling the leaders his problems in the future(so they can help him before it happens)."

I must say that is clearly reflected from what I written in my blog and I thank my cell people for their concern. I am on the road to recovery but fatique is still a reality and ever present. About making the right decision by asking God to help me, I think it is managable yet hard for me during this time as GOD might tell me something else but I choose to go against it. As for pressure, Im not to sure I feel presurrise due to all those expectations but maybe the pressure is an addition from fatique. Err, the growth part I must confess I have been affected severely. Im really inside out within my faith, my recovery is not moving either way a.t.m but I promise I will eventually. The last point is something I doubt, I seriously doubt I will do in the near future. For me to more open about telling the leaders about my issues so that they can help me, its really going to take a whole lot of time. I have to be frank that I cannot relate to leaders in some ways and I would avoid doing so.

All I need now is TIME. I know I can start getting back on track soon, its just the healing process might be quite a while. Im not going to ask everyone to pray for me over those issues, but I just want you all people to realise that these are realities that Im facing or other christians might fact and that I am not proud of. I hope after you read this, you are able to pick up learning pointers.

Dead from doing too much?

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Be My Escape

2006-02-21T12:15:00.000+08:00

I woke up this early morning to this song.

Relient K- Be My Escape

I've given up on giving up slowly
I'm blending in so you won't even know me
Apart from this whole world that shares my fate.
This one last pull that you mention
It's my one last shot at redemption
Cause I know to live you must give your life away.

And I've been housing all this doubt
and insecurity
And I've been locked inside that house
All the while you hold the key
And I've been dying to get out
And that might be the death of me.
And even though there's no way of knowing
Where to go
I promise I'm goin because

I gotta get out of here
I'm stuck inside this rut that I feel into by mistake
I gotta get out of here
And I'm begging you, I'm begging you, I'm begging you to be my escape.

I've given up on doing this alone now
Guess I failed and I'm ready to be shown how
You told me the way and now I'm tryin to get there
And this life sentence that I'm serving
I admit that I'm every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

Cause I've been housing all this doubt
and insecurity
And I've been locked inside that house
All the while you hold the key
And I've been dying to get out
And that might be the death of me.
And even though there's no way of knowing
Where to go
I promise I'm goin because

I gotta get out of here
Cause I'm afraid that this complacency is something I can't shake (yeah)
I gotta get out of here
And I'm begging you, I'm begging you, I'm begging you to be my escape.

I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self-detained and forced to live in this mess I've made
And all I'm asking is for you to do what you can with me
But I can't ask you to give what you already gave.

Cause I've been housing all this doubt
and insecurity
And I've been locked inside that house
All the while you hold the key
And I've been dying to get out
That might be the death of me.
And even though there's no way of knowing
Where to go
I promise I'm goin because

I gotta get out of here
I'm stuck inside this rut that I feel into by mistake
I gotta get out of here
And I'm begging you, I'm begging you, I'm begging you to be my escape.

I fought you for so long I should have let you win
(Oh how we regret those things we do)
And all I was trying to do was save my own skin
(But so were you)
So were you

"I gotta get out of here, I'm stuck inside this rut that I feel into by mistake. I gotta get out of here And I'm begging you, I'm begging you, I'm begging you to be my escape. " This is my cryout after all that happen.

Im in a severe dilemma or facing the "doldrums". Even though Justin had forgiven me, "let bygones be bygones n dun let such thgs happen again, i forgive and i want to tell u tht u r still impt in the kingdom of God, so dun look down on urself", ironically I cant forgive myself.

I understand that I am playing an important part within the Kingdom of God but I am stuck in the rut from the perspective of "the other side of me". The other side of me doesnt know whether I am really a burden or liability to others NOW, whether I made the right decision last year to choose RP over YAJC. The reason(s) why I resented to choose RP over YAJC was the fact that I had many childhood sunday school friend(s) like Jonathan Ang in YAJC compared to the new enviroment or "unexplored wilderness" of RP. In addition, there is someone within YAJC that I like. I guess I should not mention the 2nd point but I guess its time for me to be open and honest. That was the reality than and NOW. But, because GOD wanted me to be part of the expansion and growth of RP, I choose RP over YAJC. In RP, I havent been growing much as of yet and helping its growth either too.

I just wish I could fly away from this, BUT I know full well that GOD wants me to learn something from this. An important lesson which I havent discovered yet. Life is a learning process. I just hope that this trail wouldnt take its toll physically on me. Physically, I feel worst in someways as compared to yesterday. Fatique is slowly taking its toll on my body.

In Christ Alone, I place my trust.

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Expectations of Potential Vs. Reality

2006-02-20T21:45:00.000+08:00

I must admit of late, I have been doing a lot stupid mistakes. A lot of wrong decisions that I should not have agreed to do in the beginning and in the end, the end result in the is BAD. I have been really under pressure and fire into trying or attempting to meet up to my potential of and expectations without really caring about myself much. I got raptured by attempting to meet up to these expectations. Expectations of as a children church teacher, academically as a student, expectations in my service area of GOD in my YA minstry, expectations for music. All these have been like a major pile of workload that I have been desperately trying to clear, forgetting about myself and everything around that matters also.

Once incident was that I (am) was suppose to prepare for cell worship tomorrow, but I physically wasnt able to. But I refused to tell my cell leader (Justin) that I was not feeling physically alright. WHY? Coz I did not want to dissapoint him in the trust he has place in me and the very fact that I have been trying to meet up to the expectation of my potentials that people around me have been seeing within me like him which is in the area of leading worship. What's best is that to make "the meal seem tastier", Dear Jonathan Liew added table salt by attempting to beat about the bush until Justin had to personally look for me in my class over this issue today. What was the END RESULT? I screwed up and made a whole mess out of the whole dinner. Justin questions now whether I have the heart to lead worship and he feels that I have abused that trust he has place in me (which I admit I have at past, present and aint proud of). And I guess Pastor Kieran is going to be in the know about this. Great man! I have just created another paradox, another sterotype of me again that is kept within Jonathan's pandora's box.

In short, my life has been in a physical and spiritual mess as I get raptured by attempting to meet up to the expectations of the potentials I have.

Physically at the moment, I feel like the lungs in my body are starting to degrade. I really am starting to have breathing difficulties in breathing, causing my head to spin badly due to the lack of oxygen to my head But i dunno whehter that is due to my lack of rest or whether this are symptoms in prepation for my recurrance of Pnuemona or Helicobacter pylori infection again. If Pnuemona or Helicobacter pylori infection or both come, I doubt this time I will be able to weather that storm if it comes.

Spiritually now, I can say my growth has hit the rut again.

ARGH!!!

De Sunday School Chornicles Part 2

2006-02-19T17:00:00.000+08:00

Yo people, how have you all been today? Man sunday is always the best day of the weekend for me. Not because I can slack, but its the day where I teach in the beloved sunday school~! I love my sundays from 8-2 pm. Why the timing? Coz im teaching 2 children church services, both Primary 4. ^_^

Now this is Part 2

I was like teaching the kids today about the rapture. Wha, this term rapture a lil chim for those P4 of mine sia. Poor fellas. So I decided to do the uncoventional way of teaching which was to flip the question page and ask my kiddies those questions. LOL.

Write down the correct answer:
1. What is the blessed hope that mentioned in the Bible ?
2. What does it meant by rapture ?
3. What is Jesus promise that has not been fulfilled yet ?
4. Can you name some of the signs that will happen in this world before the second coming of Christ ?
5. What must we do to get ready for His coming ?

So I went through the questions, and told them the answers were

1. What is the blessed hope that mentioned in the Bible ?

I DUNNO!

2. What does it meant by rapture ?

I DUNNO!

3. What is Jesus promise that has not been fulfilled yet ?

I DUNNO!

4. Can you name some of the signs that will happen in this world before the second coming of Christ ?

I DUNNO!

5. What must we do to get ready for His coming ?

I DUNNO!

Aye, you all must be thinking what kinda of sunday school teacher am I? Never prepare for lesson, cannot give the correct answers and seriously

CANNOT MAKE IT!

So what kinda of sunday school teacher am I? The unconvential type! Haha, than my kiddies were laughing and a few of them were like Brother Jonathan you sure that is the answer? Than I was like "of coz not larh, liddat I teach what? Might as well call sunday school class as playtime session with Brother Jonathan? Anyway, after I teach all the I dunno should become, 'Brother Jonathan, now I know' " LOL. Yes Im LAME, but it grabs their attention and I want them to have fun while learning about GOD~!

The first half of the lesson, I threw the responsibility to Sis. Joanne. Well she was suppose to teach the whole lesson, BUT for in case I prepared and offered to teach coz she was leading worship that day, give her a day off...Actually come to think of it, Ive been doing most of the teachin of late...Sis Joanne! Time for you to teach!

So my part came and I had to cover the topic about "Can you name some of the signs that will happen in this world before the second coming of Christ ? What must we do to get ready for His coming ?" and thought them about who,what,where,why,how will happen during the rapture. They were all so sweet and attentive sia... =P. As IF! Or else why you call them children? Whahaha... =X

So I went back to the last page again and ask them to tell me the answer. To my suprise, they gave me all the correct answers and even better ones. woo! Shows that I can teach, and children listen to more to uncovential lessons. Teehee, hurhur.. =D. BUT, what is more important is that they learnt more about GOD! Amen!

End of part II. ^^

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De Sunday School Chornicles Part I

2006-02-19T16:45:00.000+08:00

Yo people, how have you all been today? Man sunday is always the best day of the weekend for me. Not because I can slack, but its the day where I teach in the beloved sunday school~! I love my sundays from 8-2 pm. Why the timing? Coz im teaching 2 children church services, both Primary 4. ^_^

I was co-guitarist for today worship session along side with Team B. I tell you when it came to first service at 8 in the morning, I had the morning jet lag as usual. But I was immediately awoken the moment we started to do the actions for My Redeemer Lives, We wanna see Jesus lifted high. I tell you it was fun man! Felt like a rejevenated 10 yr old kid. LOL. =P. I had to do that for 3 services but the song that touch me as I was playing was In Christ Alone. We did the chorus only but not the whole song, much to Kimberly's dissapointment. LOL. =P.

Brian Littrell - In Christ Alone

In Christ alone will I glory
Though I could pride myself in battles won
For I've been blessed beyond measure
And by His strength alone I overcome
Oh I could stop and count successes
Like diamonds in my hands
But those trophies could not equal
To the grace by which I stand

In Christ alone I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory let it be said of me
My source of strength, my source of hope is Christ alone

In Christ alone will I glory
For only by His grace I am redeemed
And only His tender mercy
Could reach beyond my weakness to my need
Now I seek no greater honor
Than just to know Him more
And to count my gains
But losses to the glory of my Lord

In Christ alone I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory let it be said of me
My source of strength, my source of hope is Christ alone

In every victory let it be said of me
My source of strength, my source of hope is Christ alone...

Btw, there was a version done by Backstreet Boys also. But either way, I love this song for its lyrics, it is so meaningful to me. Coz no mattter what good things or bad things come my way in this life on mine, at least I know that

"In Christ alone I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory let it be said of me
My source of strength, my source of hope is Christ alone "

End of Part I. =)

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Operation J20: The Twist

2006-02-18T21:35:00.000+08:00

Today something unexpected happen man, while we were actually planning to embarass Justin or a.k.a Operation J20 by celebrating his birthday with the Young Adults during the YA service, there was an unexpected twist to the plot. It was Pastor Calvin Lee's birthday! Haha, well I must say that the church has really been blessed to have him all these years and must really thank him for building the different areas of the church and also in helping me with my school work. =P. With this I end with a song for him!

?- Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to (Pastor) Calvin,
Happy Birthday to you!

=P. I noe its kinda slezzy and lame to do so. But its the heart that counts. ^^

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The 10 Floor Bottle Drop, My Near Escape

2006-02-18T00:05:00.000+08:00

Whao today was scary, really scary...

The thought of it just makes me freak, the sight of seeing that place again will haunt me. =x. What am I talking about? My near arrest by the police for killer litter...

Aye, so what happened was I went out with Darren, Des to go get presents for Justin as his bdae is on Sunday at Tan Boon Liat warehouse, where SKS books is located. Btw, SKS is your christian resource area if you are looking for one. Well, deciding on Justin's birthday present wasnt easy man. We had to shelf through all the books sections especially the section on apologestics which has one of the best reads available and of course Justin simply loves apologestics man. =). But we finally managed to get two books for him! One is Ryan Dobson 2live4 and the other is an apologetic that I cant rmb... =P

So after we were settled, we were at the 10 floor waiting for the lift. I leaned my bag against the pillar and decieded to make myself more comfortable by adjusting my bag. However, what I did expect was that my bottle slipped out from the bottle slot, launch itself 8 levels to hit a shelther at the 2nd floor. I did notice till I realised that suomething was amiss and the aunty at the 9th floor was giving me a glare.

Well, I would like to thank GOD firstly, that no one was hurt. That there was a shelther to absorb the impact of the bottle fall. And also, for not letting me lend in jail because of killer litter.

Today was really a situation that I dont ever ever want to happen again. I just really thank GOD that Im still here, for his protection over me. =)

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More Than An Overcomer

2006-02-17T00:35:00.001+08:00

I aint really in a good mood of late I admit. For two days in a row, I got a music lecture from my love one over my guitar. She said rather mean things implying that I was not musically talented and gave me a guitar lecture over octaves when I am doing a fingering practice. Great a if you love one told you that? I really felt like taking my Ovation and smash it her face. That was how angered I was!

After that incident, my morale dropped big time. Her comments were really discouraging and it hurts worst than a stab wound in the heart, that I had lost my confidence in overcoming the barriers that I am/have prepared to face for my guitars. But everything changed after I listen to the song below. The moment I heard this song, my anger just calmed down totally, overcame those "iron chariots", and played significantly better in my guitar especially when it came to my fingering excercise. However, I wont let my gut down and there are areas to improve still. =)

Riverview- More than an overcomer

When I am weak, You strengthen me
Through You alone I can do anything
Now when I speak, The darkness flees
Your power burns Inside of me

And I am More than an overcomer
This I believe
And I know Nothing can stand against me
Christ lives in me

When I am weak, You strengthen me
Through You alone I can do anything
Now when I speak, The darkness flees
Your power burns Inside of me

And I am More than an overcomer
This I believe
And I know Nothing can stand against me
Christ lives in me

I've seen a mountain move
I've watched a giant fall
All things are possible
When I believe Your word

And I am More than an overcomer
This I believe
And I know Nothing can stand against me
Christ lives in me

And I am More than an overcomer
This I believe
And I know Nothing can stand against me
Christ lives in me

And I am More than an overcomer
This I believe
And I know Nothing can stand against me
Christ lives in me

Christ lives in me, Christ lives in me...

Nice song ey? =)

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Root Of It All

2006-02-16T14:00:00.000+08:00

By the tree- Root Of It All

All of our fashions have faded
Each generation has been here before
How do we get so jaded?
Break this cloud that we're on
Let it rain, let it pour
When all is said and all is done
Will we turn our face to the Son?

Get back to the root of it all
Jesus is calling us
To the love of a father
Get back to the root of it all
Jesus is calling us
To love one another

This world and all of its treasures
Pull in tied, chase the wind
Lose our grip, break the fall
Love will transcend through the ages
Darkness cannot survive
With the break of the dawn
Take me back again
To the place where we first metI know I can't save myself
Grace is here for free
Faith is something we cannot see
I know it's time to lay it down

Get back to the root of it all
Jesus is calling us
To the love of a father
Get back to the root of it all
Jesus is calling us
To love one another

Get back to the start of it all
Jesus is calling us
To the love of a father
Get back to the root of it all
Jesus is calling us
To love one another

Get back to the root of it all
Jesus is calling us
To the love of a father
Get back to the root of it all
Jesus is calling us
To love one another

Get back to the root of it all
Get back to the start of it all
Get back to the root of it all

Time for us to get back to the root of it all.
Time for us to get back to the beginning,
To the basic foundations again.
Its time for us to get back to the love of the father
As Jesus is calling us
Can you hear the sound of revivial?
There's a stiring in the spirit happening right here, right now?

Worlds Apart

2006-02-16T00:05:00.000+08:00

Its one day after VD and immediately I got burdened. "Instantaneous burden" as I would call it. This time it was really bad. Doubts started settling in my mind over my music. I suddenly lost all my confidence, really felt that I lost it all.

Well, I was so and over confident that I would be able to financially cope with my passion in music through my savings, through parents sponsership at terms and condition that I get top 5% academically within my studies but suddenly I went blank. Black out! I realised much later that I had been a little over confident and pride took the better of me over "terms and condition that I get top 5% academically within my studies" that I totally forgot, TOTALLY FORGOT where that source of blessing came from the first time. The first semester when I had achieved the feet of "top 5% academically within my studies" for the first time, I forgot it came from the grace and providence of GOD. It is not by man's acquired knowledge only, but by GOD's blessing and favour in us.

I just hope that GOD doesnt punish me for that, over the fact that I was not humble and over confident that it took over my heart. But I pray that he forgive me, forgive me for that mistake as I learn from it and not take it on my results. Results mean a lot to helping me achieve GOD's calling in music ministry a.t.m, but his wisdom surpises all. I believe that GOD will provide, he is our Jehovah Jirah.

With that I leave you with a song, worlds apart. Let the song minister to you and take your apart in certain aspects and areas, make it your prayer if you can!

Jars of Clay- Worlds Apart

I am the only one to blame for this
Somehow it all ends up the same
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I flew too high and like Icarus I collide
With a world I tried so hard to leave behind
To rid myself of all but love
To give and die
To turn away and not become
Another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves
More deeply than the oceans,More abundant than the tear
Of a world embracing every heartache
Can I be the one to sacrifice
Or grip that spear and watch the blood and water flow

To love you, take my world apart
To need you, I am on my knees
To love you, take my world apart
To need you, broken on my knees

All said and done I stand alone
Amongst remains of a life I should not own
It takes all I am to believe
In the mercy that covers me
Did you really have to die for me?All I am for all you are
Because what I need and what I believe are worlds apart

To love you, take my world apart
To need you, I am on my knees
To love you, take my world apart
To need you, broken on my knees

I look beyond the empty cross forgetting what my life has costand
Wipe away the crimson stains and dull the nails that still remain
More and more I need you now, I owe you more each passing hour
The battle between grace and pride I gave up not so long ago
So steal my heart and take the pain and wash the feet and cleanse my pride
Take the selfish, take the weak, and all the things I cannot hide
Take the beauty, take my tears the sin-soaked heart and make it yours
Take my world all apart take it now, take it now and serve the ones that I despise
Speak the words I cant deny watch the world I used to love
Fall to dust and thrown away

I look beyond the empty cross forgetting what my life has costand
Wipe away the crimson stains and dull the nails that still remain
More and more I need you now, I owe you more each passing hour
The battle between grace and pride I gave up not so long ago
So steal my heart and take the pain and wash the feet and cleanse my pride
Take the selfish, take the weak, and all the things I cannot hide
Take the beauty, take my tears
Take my world apart, take my world apart
I pray, I pray

Take my world apart

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Happy Valetines Day!

2006-02-15T07:15:00.000+08:00

Wa, yesterday was valetines day man! To all those whom I havent wish, HAPPY VALETINES DAY!

Well, nothing much as usual this year (again! =P) for this special day. (Proves that Jonathan is still happy living a life of singlehood!) Being single is still cool. Not saying that being attached isnt either, both has its fair share of good and bad. Guess this day is suppose to be the day you spend with your love ones, that special one, your only one. BUT, it was unqiue this year in some ways.

I had spent my Valetines Day with the ones I hold most dearly to in church and love, my cell people. Des, Jasyln, Vanessa, Darren and Justin + Wallice (+Ah Qiang + Charlie + You Yun) . All cool people that I love in some ways. ^^. But today cell had a little different atmosphere or different ambience to it. Dunno whether it was because of me cutting my hair off, =P, or it was due to Valetines Day thing. How I wish cell was more than a one day in a week affair! =).

Today in cell, learnt about the heart of a shepherd, 3 certain qualities of the heart of a shephard by David and taught by Jesus. I think what I like about today cell learning is that Wallice really gave us new insights and much deeper thought to the whole learning process. I liked it. But all the theortical stuff isnt enough, must have ACTION! Was quite suprised and blur when Justin had complimented and encourage me over a sms I sent to him as an example of holistic pastoral care as a shepherd and what we can do as a cell gorup. CoOl~! Thanks Justin!

After we finished cell, I met someone I havent meet or seen in a while. My former former former cell mentor in youth, Bro. Timothy. We shared some insights with each other about our lives and exchange views and opinons on topics we were discussing. Hmmm, I was enlighted a lot about prison ministry from him and the youth work he is doing. Sadly, I wish he was back to youth serving. But GOD has called him to another area, so its still GOOD! =)

When I reached home, I spent my rest of my valetine reflecting about Valetines day this year and what are my plans for next years one. Plans btw, dont have to be love plans or anything, yea. Just wondering and daydreaming as usual...

I had spent much of the remainder with my guitar practising. Hey! The guitar was my Valetine during that time! =P. But I enjoyed the moment with my "valetine" in my room practising. Aye, wish I had uploaded the photo of me practising. Got a little too engrossed practising in the picture. LOL.

Anyway that was pretty much most of the thing that happened within a short of Jonathan Liew, I leave you with a song to do with love by JOC.

Jars of Clay- I Want To Fall In Love With You/Love Song For A Savior

In open fields of wild flowers,
she breathes the air and flies away
She thanks her Jesus for the daises and the roses
in no simple language
Someday she'll understand the meaning of it all
He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close a heartbeat or a song on her lips
Someday she'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call her and she will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and she'll
pray,

"I want to fall in love with You"
"I want to fall in love with You"
"I want to fall in love with You"
"I want to fall in love with You"
"I want to fall in love with You"

Sitting silent wearing Sunday best
The sermon echoes through the walls
A great salvation through it calls to the people
who stare into nowhere, and can't feel the chains on their souls
He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close a heartbeat or a song on our lips
Someday we'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call us and we will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and we'll
pray,

"I want to fall in love with You"
"I want to fall in love with You"
"I want to fall in love with You"
"I want to fall in love with You"
"I want to fall in love with You"

It seems too easy to call you "Savior",
Not close enough to call you "God"
So as I sit and think of words I can mention
to show my devotion

I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You

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The Gutiar Dilemma Part 3

2006-02-14T07:45:00.000+08:00

Man, I feel so good now! Finally, my guitar dilemma is over. woOt! For those who dont know my guitar dilemma was to choose between bass and electric guitar. Ive been discussing with Jem Toh and Ricky over how I should choose between both. On one hand, Jeremy is the lone bassist at the moment playing for youth and since Daniel Heng left, will someone succeed Ricky in youth before he moves to adult?

I be honest with you, I was having a physical and spiritual headache over choosing between these two. Than I decided to bring it to GOD. After praying for weeks, GOD finally gave me the answer. He wanted me to learn BOTH! How do I know? When I was praying to God, I asked what he desired for me to serve him in the ministry of music. In my heart, I wanted to play both electric and bass. Do what GOD desires and wants, NOT what you want!

Than God spoke to me before I was teaching in children church last sunday. He told me the reason that he wanted me to serve there was not only to help the sunday school due to the lack of teachers and building me a passion for kids but to aid the worship too! Aye, the worship team for children church has no drummer, no bassist, no electric guitars! Later he said he wanted me to use those talents of learning both guitars there. So this is how I know.

I know that the road ahead for learning both is going to pose a lot and a lot of trails like financially and spiritually for me, but Im gonna give it my all.Why? Cause all for love, Jesus choose to die for us. Reverse the polarity of that, apply it into our lives and what does God say? Give and serve GOD with your all!

What I have now:

Future Electric:

Emily The Strange (Just for collection purposes)

Fender American Stratocaster

or/and

PRS 513

Future Bass (Recommended by Jem Toh)

Fender Japan Jazz Bass

+ Passion +

2006-02-14T07:15:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I felt really terrible down. I was kinda of upset that I aint having the support and encouragement for what I am passionate for. Well, what I am refering specifically to is my love for guitars. When I told the rest that I quit DOTA for guitars, what I meant was playing less and dedicating more time for guitars. Sorry if I made everyone misunderstand the meaning of quit. Than sometimes when I play, some comment I should "Go play guitar, dont play DOTA". This some are both Christians and non-Christians.

Yes, I felt that I should have negleted my friends like Caleb, Samuel and the rest of the gang in some ways for my individualistical passion but I feel that it was my passion to say something like that initially and I guess some were encouraging me with a sincere heart by wanting me to practise and play my guitar more and more often!

However, everthing's changed when I initiated a conversation with Jeremy. Jeremy was like "if its a passion, nothing can pull u down. =). nothing gonna stop you from pursuing your dreams". What he say really meant a lot to me, it really made my remainder of the day. In addition I remembered I cant let GOD who has blessed me with the talent of learning guitars at such a late age, my godbrother Dr. Heng down! Ahhh, I feel so much beta... Thanks Jeremy!

With this I leave with a song that ministered to me before I turned it for the night. One word to describe it, "PASSION"

Kutless- Passion

Within my mind's eye
Flickering from the past
Come images that terrify and calm
A paradox in me

Nail pierced hands they run with blood
A splitting brow forced by the thorns
His face is writhing with the pain yet it's comforting to me

He chose to give it all
Jesus endured the pain
Paying a debt I owed and created a paradox in me
Nail pierced hands they run with blood
A splitting brow forced by the thorns
His face is writhing with the pain yet it's comforting to me

Nail pierced hands they run with blood
A splitting brow forced by the thorns
His face is writhing with the pain yet it's comforting to me

And in my heart I know that you're the only one
Who could of came and died, a sacrifice
As your God's only son

Nail pierced hands they run with blood
A splitting brow forced by the thorns
His face is writhing with the pain yet it's comforting to me

FiR3pRo0F~

2006-02-13T09:20:00.000+08:00

Pillar- Fireproof

Here's a chance to show you how I feel
A chance for you to see it's real
To see just what I feel inside and who it is that's by my side
I will never change my mind
Try to torch me and you'll find
You can't turn me or deter me
No matter how you try
You can't burn me

I know where I stand and what'll happen if you try it
I am FIREPROOF
I know my heart and I just can't deny it
I am FIREPROOF
I tried to tell you but you wouldn't be quiet
I am FIREPROOF
I'll never bow down and you won't buy it
I am FIREPROOF

Now you know what I'm all about
There's no chance I'll ever doubt
The only one who can control me
I extol the Almighty
You want me to put it on the line
And give yield to you this time
See but I won't compromise and I realize
It's my time to rise

I know where I stand and what'll happen if you try it
I am FIREPROOF
I know my heart and I just can't deny it
I am FIREPROOF
I tried to tell you but you wouldn't be quiet
I am FIREPROOF
I'll never bow down and you won't buy it
I am FIREPROOF

You'll never take me in the fire
You'll never take my own desire

I know where I stand and what'll happen if you try it
I am FIREPROOF
I know my heart and I just can't deny it
I am FIREPROOF
I tried to tell you but you wouldn't be quiet
I am FIREPROOF
I'll never bow down and you won't buy it
I am FIREPROOF

I get rather high with this song, this morning and this time Im posting it. I just dunno why ironically. I guess this song just simply reaffirms my faith, "You'll never take me in the fire, You'll never take my own desire". Nothing is gonna let anything deter me from GOD! ^^

+Rewind+

2006-02-12T23:50:00.000+08:00

Pillar- Rewind

It seems just like yesterday was the first time that I heard You call my name
Since then, so much has changed
I'm still the same man that I was before
Knowing that I can be without anything scares me away from being alone
Now, that I know what's going on
I can look back and see You
And I made You wait, as I turned away

If I could rewind, watch all my life
Just pass me by, I could see You
If I could rewind, I'd take back the lies
And all of those times I hurt You

I dont know if I'll ever know exactly how much that I hurt You
Knowing that hurts me everyday
If I could rewind, I would take it away
And not make You wait, and I won't walk away

I wanna take back all those lies
I wanna take back all those times
I wanna show You with my life that I'm here for You

If I could rewind, watch all my life
Just pass me by, I could see You
If I could rewind, I'd take back the lies
And all of those times I hurt You

This is how I feel when I am burden because of a cold friendship with someone. Word by word the song describes everything that I feel emotionally.Though we see each other like often but ironically its stale like anything or its like a puddle of stagnant water. And what's more is that I feel like I hate myself for the emotions I experience everytime I see that person. Sincerely, I know Ive done something wrong on my part. And I wish I could REWIND this cold friendship from back to the beginning and rekindl that fire in our friendship. "I wanna take back all those lies, I wanna take back all those times". At these very moment, "I dont know if Ill ever know exactly how much that I hurt You" and it really hurts just like stab wound in my heart not to know.

But if you ever do read this blog my, I want to say this sincerely with all my heart and all my soul upon GOD that Im really sorry if I have done anything to you, hurt you in some ways. All those times that I have done something unpleasing or upsetting, I wish I could take it away. I hope that we can become better friends and grow together in Christ.

Sorry...

Something From NothingTM

+ Count On Me +

2006-02-11T21:36:00.000+08:00

Aye, yesterday was the release of O lvl results. Man, thank GOD mine was last year! Well, but
as I expected joy, agony and neutrality were reflected in the sea of people's faces around me. Today this blog is dedicated to Melissa mei~

Default- Count On Me

I know that life aint always good to you.
Ive seen exactly what its put you through
Thrown you around and turned you upside down and so you
You got to thinking there was no way out
You started sinking and it pulled you down
It may be tough youve got to get back up
Because you know that life aint over yet
Im here for you so dont forget
You can count on me
Cause I will carry you till you carry on

Anytime you need someone
Somebody strong to lean on
Well you can count on me
To hold you till the healing is done
And every time you fall apart
Well you can hide here in my arms
And you can count on me
To hold you till that feeling is gone

I wonder why nobodys waiting on you
Id like to be the one to pull you through your darkest times
Id love to be the light that finds you
I see a silver lining on your cloud
Ill pick you up whenever you fall down
Just take my hand and I will help you stand
Because you know that life ain't over yet
Im here for you so dont forget
You can count on me
Cause I will carry you till you carry on

Anytime you need someone
Somebody strong to lean on
Well you can count on me to hold you till the healing is done
And every time you fall apart you can hide here in my arms
And you can count on me to hold you till that feeling is

Gone so you can live today
Say so long to yesterday
Keep on counting on me to carry you till you carry on
Carry on

You know that life aint over yet
Im here for you so dont forget
You can count on me cause
I will carry you till you carry on

Anytime you need someone
Somebody strong to lean on
Well you can count on me to hold you till that healing is done
And every time you fall apart
You can hide here in my arms
And you can count on me to hold you till that feeling is gone

Remember life aint over yet
Im here for you so dont forget
That you can count on me to hold you till that feeling is gone
Remember life aint over yet
Im here for you so dont forget
That you can count on me to hold you till that feeling is gone

Melissa, I can see behind those two eyes the dissapointment you have in you. I can tell there is that fire and passion to study hard in you which you cannot deny. Actaully to get 19 fro L1R5 and 16 for L1R4 is a blessing itself. Put aside your dissapointment and thank God kay? ;). I wasnt so lucky like you to get such good grades. But I will be here to help you, a brother you can count on, to hold you through this time. So you arent alone, you still have your family, friends and your bf to be there for you. Lastly, me of course~! =P. I will help you evaluate your options available and try to be of your service as much as I can. Take care and know that God loves you still~!

+ Bring Me Down + Simply

2006-02-10T07:27:00.000+08:00

Scenario 1:

"News just came, it aint good. Its nothing to do with me, neither anything to do with my spiritual growth but its the heart of my family. Something's just cropped out financially within the family business. I can't reveal much about that but I tell its not the best of moments my family is going to face. "

Heard of that typical scenerio in someone elses life? Or has it happened to you yourself? Or has it happened to your love ones around you? This is reality and what we face in this now competitive world. The Devil tries to thrown us off track and lead us astray from GOD by being distracted from all these matters in our lives. However, I tell you this. GOD wont leave you in the lurge for these and we ourselves should not be brought down and backslide! We should stand on a strongholds and breakdown those "iron chariots", be on the FLIPSIDE! Interestingly, two song come minstered to me, both by the same band.

Pillar- Bring Me Down
You can't bring me down, you can't bring me down

Back in the day when nothing really mattered to me
I only saw with my eyes what they wanted to see
And everything around me seemed to never change
Looking for an easy way out, someone to blame
Why does it work this way, still today?
You wanna take somebody down along the way?
But I won't let that one be me, 'cause I don't want the drama it
brings
See, today isn't "back in the day" anymore
I know a little more than I did before
So, don't forget before you try bringing me down
What goes around always comes back around

You can't bring me down
Do you hear what I'm trying to say?
You can't bring me down
I'll never turn the other way
You can't bring me down
What is it you're trying to say?
You can't bring me down
It's not like I'm running away

So, you think you can see inside my mind?
You probably could if you just took a little time
I know exactly what you're trying to say
But sitting in the stands ain't the same as playing the game
So, I can't comprehend in my mind
Just why we can't leave it all behind
So, come on and stand beside, and hold the line
'Cause tonight is the night we cry

Oh

Why can't we feel what it takes for us to be real?
Why can't we see what it takes for us to believe?
Why do we say all of these things that bring us down?

You can't bring me down

Wad I like about this song is the chorus,
"You can't bring me down
Do you hear what I'm trying to say?
You can't bring me down
I'll never turn the other way
You can't bring me down
What is it you're trying to say?
You can't bring me down
It's not like I'm running away"

People, dont be afraid or broken down because of matters like this. That chorus should be your stand against the devil. DECLARE IT!

Scenario 2:

Well, time and again we get to worried with solving these matters within our own humane knowledge that we forget to pray, forget our QT, neglecting the GOD that first and always will loved us! But people, "reality check" here! GOD will simply love us no matter what we have done like turning back, all the stupid unglorifying things we've done. GOD's door is always opened for us and anyone else likewise! So here is the second song, called Simply.

Pillar- Simply
Ive made it so hard on myself, turning my back on how You felt
Seeing a lie that led me on, leaving a love that did no wrong
Thats what it took for me to say

That You simply love
Despite all the stupid things Ive done
Its hard to remember
That You simply love
Even though I know not what Ive done
Its hard to remember
That You simply love

Ive tried to do all this on my own
Not thinking once of what Youve shown
All that Ive done has blinded me
To everything that You have for me
I want You to know that I finally see

I dont know why I cant understand
I dont know why I cant comprehend

What I want to tell you is pretty much within this simply simple song. ^^

Something From NothingTM

Reality Check! +Your Touch+

2006-02-09T07:35:00.000+08:00

Today in school during the Contemporary Issues in Culture & Aesthetics class, we had learnt about reality check. However, this reality check was more inclined to media "reality". What is media "reality"? What the media deems or sees fit as real. Interesting a? =X

But I guess putting that aside, It's time I did a reality check of my life thus far! Not 17 yrs. But over these 1 month 1 weeks, about how "real" my life has been towards GOD, in church, towards other people. Sometimes, to be honest I feel like my life has been highly "hypocritical" or false instead of true.

I was tearing quite a lot in the car this morning after I reflected and reflected. I think I feel guilty in someways that I've been false or living like a lie at incidents that happened within this short span. But I felt that it was GOD speaking to me again. Thing like what I said yesterday, "it really my desire to honour him in everything I do? Have I really been truely seeking and worshipping him with all my heart? Have I used my all to give him the praise that he deserves? Have I really adored at the wonders of his grace?" and now addition food for thoughts like "How real have I been towards you, GOD?"

But when I listened to one song, the first song that happened to be playing in my iPod, it immediately effectively ministered to me.

Kutless- Your Touch

Staring at a blank wall and all its white washed face
Not knowing why I had to choose this way
I discern I was wrong in my way
Looking for peace in another, another domain
And I realize that its true I seek you, yes I seek you
And I realize that its true I need you, yes I need you

And I reach and I touch you and I know that I need you
To reach out and to touch me and I know I know that I need your touch

Not knowing why I ever retreated from your arms
A mistake I made
Now oh Lord I feel your warm embrace, contentment fills my soul as joy lights my face.

And I realize that its true I seek you, yes I seek you
And I realize that its true I need you, yes I need you
And I reach and I touch you and I know that I need you
To reach out and to touch me and I know I know that I need your touch

You Look into the sky and see His arms of love reaching out for you His arms of love and grace And you know you need him, you need his touch I need your, I need your.....

I was lost but now I'm found

And I reach and I touch you and I know that I need you
To reach out and to touch me and I know I
know that I need your touch

After that reflection of my "reality check", my face was totally whitewashed and I really did not know why I had choosen to do things that were false towards GOD. And I admit I was wrong, THAT those things werent GLORIFYING to GOD! So I realised that he is true and real, I seek him, yes I seek him!

Now where I stand is this, "I reach and I touch you and I know that I need you
To reach out and to touch me and I know I know that I need your touch". I, Jonathan am a person who yearns and is wanting to reach out for God's touch. A person who wants to be real towards GOD, a person who wants to grow GIANOURMOUSLY for GOD!

Credits:

GOD- Well in the wake of the morning, you made reflect about how "real" you are in my life and now I have reaffirmed stand for you! Amen!

Darren Lee- Brother, if you had never pass to me the songs by Kutless, my reply, response and the way God ministers would have been different time and again. It would have been different. Let's grow together in Christ!

Something From NothingTM

+I Give You My Heart, This is My Desire+ Take This Life +

2006-02-08T21:35:00.000+08:00

Hillsongs/Reuben Morgan- I Give You My Heart

This is my desire, to honour You
Lord, with all my heart I worship You
All I have within me, I give You praise
All that I adore is in You.

Lord, I give you my heart
I give you my soul
I live for you alone
Every breath that I take
Every moment Im awake
Lord, have Your way in me.

When I was asked to lead for cell worship by Justin, I really did not know where to start from and how. But I prayed and the theme came to mind, Justin had suggested me to lead this song
I Give You My Heart (This Is My Desire).

When leading this song, I felt that God's conviction was in me during the beginning of the song itself.

This is my desire, to honour You
Lord, with all my heart I worship You
All I have within me, I give You praise
All that I adore is in You.

God came in as I was leading, convicted my heart with questions and thoughts that were circulating and abduntly flowing through my mind. Things like Is it really my desire to honour him in everything I do? Have I really been truely seeking and worshipping him with all my heart? Have I used my all to give him the praise that he deserves? Have I really adored at the wonders of his grace?

I tell you that experience itself was great and long to have more of it as I dwell into his prescence. My question and reply to God come from a song by Shaun McDonald.

Shaun McDonald- Take This Life
As I'm standing here, staring into the mirror
See the figure of a man trying to take a stand
And live for something more
Integrity is what I need and honor to my soul I feed
To give it up, pack it in, getting rid of all my sin that's weighing me down
Won't You come and fill
I want You to come and make me more real

Take this life, won't You change this life
Come and make me whole
Won't You take this life, won't You change this life
Come and make me whole

In my pursuit of what is real
My heart is longing with a need to feel my soul come alive
I trudge and I step through the height and the death
Of a long narrow as I'm growing old
And soon I will be home

I asked God using the words of the song, "Take this life, won't You change this life, Come and make me whole. Won't You take this life, won't You change this life, Come and make me whole"
Or in my words, God why don't you just take my life, change my life, come and make me whole from that chance.

I yet to get a reply for that, but I know and all I can say is this. God's answer will be good! His knowledge and answer surpasses all. So GOD, I want to say this to you. Jonathan: "I look forward to you reply during QT or once again when I expericence that dwelling in your prescence. "

With that that's all I have to say. But wait! Today I shall include the credits section.

Credits:

GOD- For firstly, asking Justin to ask me to lead worship. Giving me that spiritual burden before the worship, preparation of it and convicting me during worship.

Darren Lee- Brother, if you had never pass to me the songs by Shaun McDonald, my reply would have been different. It would have been less spiritual in ways and be totally different. Brother just want to say you mean a lot to me! This is just one of the examples why after knowing you since secondary school, we still are close friends. God favours our friendship for a reason brother!

Justin a.k.a Crimson Tide- Justin, thanks for asking me to lead worship. First, when you asked me, I admit I was trying to make an excuse not to. THAT isnt GLORIFYING to GOD! But I realised why and the burden was meant for a reason. I look foward to leading more and more. And of course, playing a more participative role within the cell and YA ministry. If you felt that I surpass your expectations, I can say it came with GOD's conviction. I will say this with GOD's favour, the next time I promise it will be more dynamic worship. Lastly, there are still areas for
me to improve on and I will look to it!

Vanessa Soh- After reading your blog, about the part where you were singing the song "Better is One Day", I was inspired to post something like this. Well Van, I wish you knew you are an inspiraiton to me in ways. This is just one of the examples. I really sincerely want you better as a friend and I wish I could relate to you better. This is my resolution and prayer for this year. And it will always be till I can do it. I love you as sister in Christ!

Something From NothingTM

...:::In Loving Memory Of:::...

2006-02-07T22:41:00.000+08:00

Alter Bridge- In Lovin Memory

Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly

I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always home waiting
And now I come home and I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of
The one that was so true
You were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me

I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always home waiting
But now I come home and it's not the same, no
It feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

I'm glad he set you free from sorrow
I'll still love you more tomorrow
And you will be here with me still

All you did you did with feeling
And You always found the meaning
And you always will
And you always will
And you always will

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

Dear Bro Aaron Lam,

I know its not easy to overcome a lost of your love one. To be honest, you've been a strong man in the eyes of God. You still are able to cope emotionally, cope acadamically and spiritually at the same time. The reason why I choose this song Alter Bridge- In Loving Memory, as I guess it has elements of your feeling in it written in the song. Brother, please don't feel guilty you did not spend time with your grandma during her ailing health and was busy over other things. I feel that you should be happy she is called home into the prescence and is with the Big Daddie Above, God. I gues yur grandma would understand what you've faced than and she will want you to do well in your studies for her, will be glad that you acknowledge your mistakes through your guilt. Ultimately, your grandma would want you to glorify GOD!

P.S: Should you need any help or assitance in anyway, please feel to apporach me brother. I love you as a brother in Christ, so does everyone in CC!

Hey Im Back! Life From Nothing In Function!

2006-02-06T23:21:00.004+08:00

Hello people!

Im back blogging again. I know this is like the 5th time Ive said that for all my 5 blogs! :P
But this time, Im SERIOUSLY back blogging

This time new blog addres, new features, new background, new (fill in the blanks... :P)!
Yes, this time Ive decided to make the blog more Christian theme and it looks so much better.
I must give special thanks to all those bloggers on my list (especially the church people) for giving me inspiration to blog again!

I guess what I like most bout this new blog is the background design. Taken from the song In Christ Alone, and I tell you The cross is SWeeT, it fuses so nicely with the background!

People please give me your constructive feedback and comments kay? Thanks! ^_^

O yeah, the reason why this blog address is called Life From Nothing is because with christ, a life of nothing becomes a life of something or Something from Nothing. Agree?

Side Comment: Something from NothingTM is me btw, my artist name inspired from Jenn's The Other Side of Glory and Justin's Crimson Tide. Well, I'm in the midst of composing songs based on the theme of something from nothing, so will keep you posted once I'm done!

With that, take care and God Bless!

Something From NothingTM